And Always.

Chapter 14

(21 By Gracie Abrams)

Harley's Pov

I'm numb. All of the songs about him, reminded me of how it was ended.

"I missed your 21st birthday, I've been up at home." I looked out into the crowd, trying to remember every face I was seeing.

"Almost tried to call you, don't know if I should." I remember opening my phone on March 1st and seeing Nicholas at Smokey's bar.

"Hate to picture you half-drunk, happy." I got so frustrated when I saw that he was partying, not because I didn't want him to, but because I wasn't able to be there with him.

"Hate to think you went out without me." I remember seeing all of the pictures with Skylar, and feeling the pain of not being able to hug the girl I practically adopted as my own.

I still can't wrap my finger around the fact that I missed her getting engaged. I missed her grow into the woman I knew that she would always grow into, and now I would never be able to see that woman.

"I still haven't heard from your family, but you said your mom always loved me." I want nothing more than to be back in the arms of Roxanne Armstrong. Feeling her motherly love, and knowing I was safe and taken care of, no matter what.

"I see the look in your eye and I'm biting my tongue." Seeing him brought so many memories back. He looked so happy yet so terrified to see me.

Little did I know, that night would ruin me.

"You'd be the love of my life, when I was young." 19 to 24, and he had my heart. I was so consumed with my love for him when I was young. Now I was drowning because I didn't have his love.

"When the night is over." I looked out at the crowd and smiled. No matter how much I wanted to go back to him, this stage, this crowd, these boys that are up here with me, we're my life.

"Don't call me up, I'm already under." I have tried to fight my way back to him, maybe it's time. Maybe I should finally give up, just like him.

"I get a little bit alone sometimes and I miss you again." I would always miss him, and the way he made me feel, and I would give up anything just to have Nicholas Armstrong back in my arms, even if it was just for a minute.

"I'll be the love of your life, inside your head." He was right though. I expected him to wait ten years of his life for me. Sometimes, things just aren't meant to be Forever And Always.

"When the night is over, don't call me up i'm already under." I looked down at the red dress I was wearing. Even if he was ready to give up, part of my fight was just beginning, and I would not stop, until I got what I wanted.

"Skylar said she saw you out past 12 o'clock." I looked over at the crowd, my eyes falling on someone that I've grown so close with, in the past 4 and a half days.

"Just because your hurting, doesn't mean I'm not." I regretted not reaching out to him sooner, but then again, I couldn't. I didn't have his number memorized, my phone was wiped of all contacts, all I had were my pictures and memories.