And Always.

Epilogue

(I miss you, I'm Sorry By Gracie Abrams)

Sapnap's Pov

"I'm going to go sit with Skylar while you listen to it..." Harley trailed off, giving me a kiss before walking out of the room and closing the door.

She's been putting off having me listen to this song. Apparently she wrote it in the middle of all the shit that went down, and while she loves the song, it makes her sad.

I typed in the name on my computer, pulling up the song. Watching the song pop up. I scrolled to one that shows the lyrics so I would be able to read what she was singing too. I put my headset on, and clicked on the song.

The soft melody started, and I felt my heart speed up.

"Do you remember happy together?" Her mascara ran, and I felt my eyes start to swell in tears.

"I do... Don't you?" The call longs popped up, and the endless scrolling.

"Then all of a sudden, you're sick to your stomach." Harley was now sitting on the floor of a kitchen, and had her legs pulled up and her arms wrapped around them.

"Is that still true?" Her voice came out in a whisper almost, and my heart was breaking. Maybe this isn't a good idea. Maybe I should stop.

"You said, "Forever, " in the end I fought it. Please be honest, are we better for it?" Flashbacks from that phone call that night took over my mind. That night I had thought I would be better without Harley Willows in my life. God, I was wrong.

"Thought you'd hate me, but instead you called. And said, "I miss you", I caught it." Thinking about how Harley thought I hated her because of her fake relationship with that parasite Jessie Matthews.

"Good to each other, give it the summer. I knew you too." I wish we would've been able to have summer moments together. Go on road trips, go to different places. I wish I could travel with her.

"But I only saw you once in December. I'm still confused." Seeing each other in Texas in December was like a rude awakening. She was so close, yet I wasn't able to touch her. I wasn't able to hold her. I wasn't able to love Harley.

"You said, "Forever, " and I almost bought it." Forever And Always.

"I miss fightin' in your old apartment. Breakin' dishes when you're disappointed." I remember breaking so many dishes, plates, bowls, on the floor with anger when she left. Everything reminded me of her, and I was angry that I couldn't have her.

"I still love you, I promise. Nothin' happened in the way I wanted." She left. I remember that day she left. Neither of us wanted it to happen. Neither of us wish that upon anyone. Nobody deserves to feel that kind of pain.

"Every corner of this house is haunted. And I know you said that we're not talkin'." The first time she came back here, we both got drunk. I barely remember that night, but what I do remember is her being so terrified by the house because we had memories everywhere in it.

"But I miss you, I'm sorry." Her eyes closed and she fell back onto the bed.

"I don't wanna go, think I'll make it worse." She rolled over, laying on her side, her black mascara running onto her white pillow case.

"Everything I know brings me back to us." Pictures flashed of so many things that we did together.

"I don't wanna go, we've been here before." She closed her eyes, and I know she was trying to force a memory away by the way she scrunched her nose.

"Everywhere I go leads me back to you."

The same thing repeated, with the chorus of the song over it. The tears poured down my face as I listened to it. Feeling every ounce of pain that I've felt in those five years. I took my headset off, and turned my computer off, looking at her side of the bed, which is now alive again.

Things were piled on the nightstand, dressers, her clothes were in my closet. Harley was back, and she wasn't ever leaving me that way, ever again.

The tears continued to pour, causing me to not hear the door open and close. Arms wrapping around my body. Her arms. Her soft touch. Her ice cold touch.

"Hey. Hey. What's going through your head?" She leaned down, wiping my tears, and I noticed tears of her own forming.

She knew exactly how I felt. She knew exactly what I was going through at this exact moment, and I had no clue how to say it.

"Never leave me like that, ever again." I cried, looking up at her. She hugged me tightly after I stood up.

"I never will." She breathed out, as she gripped me tighter like I was going to disappear. I don't blame her.

Five years is way too long for a love that is so strong it feels like home.

Something that feels like Forever..?

***

"And Always." Harley whispered into the microphone while she stared at herself in the monitor.

"That's our story." She said, looking up at me with a smile as I sat next to her.

"Now we are in this house alone. George and Dream moved, Blaze is here, and we are ready to start our lives-"

"Together." I cut her off and she smiled.

"We are ready to fully start our lives together." I said, looking at the chat as comments rolled in.

"Don't let anyone stop you from loving who you want to love."

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