And Always.

Chapter 1

(I Don't Wanna Live Forever By Taylor Swift & Zayn)

Harley's Pov

The sound of the piano filled my ears as I stood on stage. The thousands of flashlights were being held, as people cheered not knowing what song I was playing. Little did they know, they didn't know it at all. It would top off our latest album, And Always.

I looked out at the sold out crowd of 76,000 people, and I knew I made it. But at what cost? I looked over at Yomar, knowing that he was feeling that same pain I was feeling. Everything was a mess.

My heart picked up speed, as I listened to him get close to my part. I can't do this. I looked at my hand which was resting on the microphone, and the other one right below it. The tattoos crawled up my arms. A new one every time I felt just a little bit lonely.

And Always

Written in a neat cursive on my ring finger. But sometimes, always, doesn't last as long as you want it to. I know that Yomar was feeling the same, as he poured his heart out into the song we wrote together, about the people we had to leave.

The music slowed, and I felt my hands start to sweat as the nerves crept up my spine.

"I'm sitting eyes wide open and I got one thing stuck in my mind." The cheering crowd was now quiet, as they stared at me, recording. I did not want to sing this at all. But Kevin fucking Matthews ruined my life more and more every day.

"Wonder if I dodged a bullet, or just lost the love of my life?" I could feel the stares on me, but no stare would ever make me feel the way that he did.

No amount of time will ever make up for what i've been put through. I don't think there is one person on this earth that can pull me out of the dark pit I've found myself in, beside him. I've never wanted so badly to just show up at his doorstep.

Would he love me, or would he leave me there?

"Baby, Baby." I looked up at the thousands of people staring at me. Some were crying, some were confused, some were dancing around. Nobody would ever know how much my heart is broken.

"I feel crazy, up all night? All night and every day." Flashbacks to all of the late nights we had together, all of the moments I shared with him. There wasn't a piece of me that he didn't touch.

"I gave you something. But you gave me nothing." The anger now boiled my blood. None of this would've happened, if my mother didn't exist. None of this would've happened if my father was here. We would've been taken care of.

"What is happening to me?" I felt my heart sink as I remember the day I was shown those pictures. Kevin knew how to hit me where it hurt. I was always given a little sliver of what I could've had. Nick's 21st birthday was at a bar called Smokey's. I saw all of the pictures, I saw all of the videos.

Skylar's engagement pictures. That broke my heart. I wasn't there to be that older sister to her. She probably was freaking out and didn't know who to turn to.

Seeing the pictures and videos of Nick with Harper. That one didn't only kill me, but it killed Yomar. It's not easy watching the person you love move on. It's not easy having to pretend that you're in love with someone you're not. And Jessie Matthews has made sure that people knew we were "together."

Nothing is ever as it seems, Nicholas.

But in the end, maybe he just got tired of waiting for me. Five years of his life could not be spent, waiting for me to just waltz back into his life. Sometimes you have to move on, for the better.