I hate you and you hate me...there, now we're even with each other. (Chp. 1)

I hate you and you hate me...there, now we're even with each other. (Chp. 6)

Recap

Aislin's POV

Utter lonliness took hold of me and I felt pain peck at my heart like a heartless vulture. I had my eyes closed while I cried when a shadow was cast across me and I looked up to see a heavenly face. Seth.

He leaned down and brushed his hand across my cheek, "Don't cry anymore." his honey-like voice whispered. I let out a sob and threw myself in his arms. He cradled me back and forth until I stopped crying and was now letting out little hiccups. He rubbed my back and told me to tell him what was wrong so I did because I trusted him. When I finished, he said nothing but allowed me to lay in his arms of love for who knows how long.

Aislin's POV

I didn't know how Seth had found me but I was kinda glad he did because right now, I needed someone to comfort me and he was the only person I wanted to do it now that I thought about it. I hadn't stopped crying once he found me and I don't know why but, I couldn't stop crying. Everytime I tried to, I felt sadness wash over me again and I would cry some more. Seth didn't mind though because he kept rubbing my back and telling me soothing words. Though, when I finally did stop, I had hiccups and Seth wiped the remaining tears on my face.

Our eyes met as soon as I opened my eyes and he smiled his angelic smile at me, "Feeling better?" I nodded and let out a sigh and leaned my head against his chest, "H-how did you know where I was...?" I whispered. Seth shrugged, "I...just had a feeling." I let out a little laugh and smiled up at him. He was looking at me through those amazing brown eyes of his and he tightened his grip around me. "Thank you for being here with me, Seth." I murmured. Seth smiled at me and nodded, "My pleasure. I just hate seeing you in pain like that." His smile dissapeared at his last sentence and I looked up at him.

"How come?" Wow, that was a stupid question Aislin. Maybe he cares about you. My conciounse (SP?) remarked. I let out a sigh just as Seth replied, "Because I care about you." Ding, ding ding and we have a winner!! I gritted my teeth. Shut up!! You're more annoying than Amber!! I heard a snicker and then no more. My eyes moved to Seth's, "Really?" His eyes showed nothing but compassion, understanding and...love? I mentally slapped myself. He can't love me? Can he? Or maybe it's just a friend thing. Hmm.

"Really." He replied. I sighed and smiled at him, "I...care about you too." Seth's lips formed into a smile and he brushed a finger against my cheek, leaving a trail of heat behind. Or was I just blushing? Snap out of it, Aislin!! You two are only friends!! Nothing more!! I tried to convince myself that that was true but it didn't last when my conciounse let out a whitty remark, 'But you want to be more than friends, don't you? I felt my anger burn at how stupid I was for argueing with myself. No, I don't. Yes you do. NO, I DON'T. YES, YOU DO. YES, I DO!! YES. Yes you do.

I let out a frustrated sigh and Seth's beautiful face changed into confusion, "What's wrong?" And that's when I had to open my big mouth, "Not now, Seth! I'm having an argument with my brain which is telling me that I want us to be more than friends but I don't but my brain has convinced me that I do so I do!! I want us to be more than friends!!" I instantly clamped my mouth shut and felt my face turn as red as a tomato. Maybe even redder. The atmosphere around us became quiet other than the fact that the birds were chirping.

Seth was watching me with a look that I couldn't explain. But it seemed that he was sinking in the information down once I had said it. His lips formed into a small smile and he brushed his fingers against my neck which made me shiver, "You...do?" he whispered. I swallowed and looked down at the grass but felt his hands cup my face in them and he brought my face up so our eyes met. I held my breath then let it out slowly, "...yes..." And that's when I realized just how much I really did want us to be more than just friends. I wanted more of his eyes. I wanted more of his soothing voice. Heck, I wanted more of him. I waited for his response but all he did was study my eyes, my lips and my face. But mostly my lips. I looked down at his and realized how badly I wanted him to kiss me.

I suddenly was faced with the fear of rejection and felt my eyes well up. What if he didn't like me back? I touched his hands that were still holding my face and pulled away from him. I stood up and nearly fell back to ground if Seth hadn't stood up after me and caught me. He lifted me back up onto my feet and turned me around so I was facing him. I looked away as he tried to let our eyes meet but I didn't want rejection. I was so used to that feeling of pain that I just didn't want to feel it from this amazing, beautiful, hot, sweet boy.

I tried to walk away but Seth's hand snaked around my waist and gently pulled me back. I collided against his chest with a soft thud and that's when I looked up into his eyes, "Just tell me. Tell me I'm such a stupid girl to fall for you so quickly. I mean, I wouldn't blame you for not liking me back. We hardly know each other and I...I just can't blame you f-for it. Go ahead and tell me, Seth. Tell me you don't have the same feelings for me. Tell me I'm pathetic for all the gooey-love stuff. Tell me--" I was soon cut off by Seth's lips pressed against mine and I wrapped my arms around his neck at the same moment he wrapped his around my waist and brought me closer.

Our lips moved gently and sweetly at first but then things got intense once he pressed me up against the tree and began to massage my thighs with his hands. I let out a moan and he took that opportunity to explore my mouth with his tongue. Our tongues then began to battle for dominance and his won. I then realized I had one of my hands in his hair and the other one on his chest. I decided to tease him and began to pull at his hair gently which I got a moan in response. I pulled our lips apart and our eyes met but we weren't done because of the shock that had gone between us. I was guessing it had turned him on because it certainly turned me on. He tried to press our lips together again but I had other ideas.

I began to lay kisses along his jawline and then on his neck. Seth let out a husky moan which made me become very hormonal. That's when Seth decided to tease me back when he realized that was what I was doing to him. He pulled me back and softly but forcefully pressed his lips against mine and pressed me against the tree. I moaned when I felt a hardness against my inner thigh and Seth took that as the chance to stop our little make-out session which also turned out to be my first kiss and first make-out with a guy.

When he pulled away, we were both breathing heavily and he pushed himself away from me. I felt a twinge of hurt as he turned his back on me and took a couple steps away from me. A couple minutes of silence passed us when Seth finally turned around and looked at me, "I'm...sorry." I swallowed, "For what?" Seth raised an eyebrow, "For what just happened." I felt another twinge of hurt but this one was more intense. I looked away from him and tried not to let my pain be a little obvious. It was harder than I thought to hide it, "You're sorry for giving me my first kiss...?" I whispered. I looked up at him and his eyes were wide, "I stole your first kiss?" He said incredulously. I nodded and Seth's eyes became sympathetic and he came over to me and wrapped me in a big, comforting hug.

He murmured against my ear and the guilt was evident in his voice, "I'm so, so sorry. I didn't mean to. I didn't know, I just figured that you had already had your first kiss and I just...I don't know...damn. I'm so sorry Aislin." I pulled away and let a smile play on my lips, "Don't be. I'm kinda glad you're the one who gave my first kiss." Seth smiled at me, "Why?" he said huskily. I had to fight the urge to kiss him again, "Because I like you. A lot." Seth let out a chuckle and tenderly pressed his lips to mine again but this kiss was softer. He pulled away and pressed our foreheads together, "I like you a lot too." I felt my heart do a flip and rested my head on his shoulder, "Let's...just talk now. I want to get to know you better for the real you." He whispered in my ear. I agreed and we decided to go to Wendy's for breakfast because, first, I hadn't eaten and neither had he and we were both hungry, and second, well...that's pretty much it. Heh.

Seth hugged me again and took my hand in his, "Shall we?" he said playfully. I smiled, "We shall."

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