IT HURTS TO LOVE YOU (Yoonmin FF)

Chapter 38

Since he was five years old, his parents brought him to Canada because his parents thought that his life would be good and stable in Canada.But they don't know, this would be the reason why their family is not good. His parents let them be far away from each other.

Lumaki sila na hindi nila kasama ang parents nila. Lumaki sila na hindi nila naramdaman kung paano alagaan ng magulang. They are lucky because they are rich but how about their family? What if they grew up with loving parents? Maybe this is not their situation now. Mabuti na lang na hindi magkakalayo yung loob nilang magkakapatid. He loves his brother and sister so much kaya....... Hindi nya matanggap kung bakit nangyari pa yun sa brother nya....... Si Yoongi.

Dahil sa hindi nya nga matanggap, nagha-hallucinate na yung isip nya na..... Okay pa si Yoongi..... Na buhay pa sya..... At nagsisisi din sya, kung hindi nya sana sinabi yung mga salita nung araw na yun hindi masasaktan si Yoongi hindi sya iiyak.... Hindi sya masasaktan....Makakapag- focus sya pagda-drive...... Hindi sya mawawala.

(SUGA POV)
Is that true? He's gone? How? When? Why can't I remember? What happen to him? I should ask my wife? What if she thinks I'm crazy because I can't remember anything about my brother? No she never thought I was crazy. While I was staring at the moon when someone suddenly sat beside me and it's my wife. I looked at her and smile. She smile back. She's so beautiful.

"Why are you still here hubby? It's getting cold let's get insinde."

I still looking at her, hesitating to ask her.

"Ummm.. hubby...Can we talk about what happened earlier? If you want but-

I cut her

"Let's talk about it"

"O-okay"

A brief silence surrounded us. I decided to talk first.

"Why don't I remember that he's gone?W-Why do I remember that he is still alive? that he is still here? H-how did it happen that he's gone?"

I heavy sigh and she is too

"I know hubby you're confuse but calm down okay? I explain it you listen to me."

I just nod because I can't speak anymore.

"That happened three years ago. Umuwi tayo nun katulad ng sinabi mo kanina pero hindi yun nangyari last week, last month but three years ago. Nagpa- welcome party satin sila mom nun. Invite lahat ng kaibigan nyo sila Kuya Namjoon, ate Jin, Taehyung,Jungkook, kiya Hobi pati na din sila Jay at Jungwoon. Tapos biglang dumating si Yoongi kita ko yung gulat nya ng makita ako. I didn't know him that time kasi nga nagka- amnesia ako right? Then yung gabi na yun nakita mo sila Yoonji and Yoongi na nag-uusap nilapitan mo sila, hindi ko alam yung pinag-usapan nyo dahil sinabi lang sakin 'to ni Yoonji pero ang natatandaan ko pinapalayo mo na sya sa pamilya natin. Then after that talk umalis na kayo ni Yoonji at si Namjoon naman ang sabi nya nakita nya si Yoongi after nyong mag-usap pero umalis agad sya then hanggang doon nalang na may nakakita sa kanya."

She stop and deep breath.

"After few hours may tumawag sa mommy mo na.... nasa hospital daw si Yoongi kaya pumunta agad tayo doon. Car accident kung bakit sya nawala, hindi nya kinaya. After his funeral bumalik tayo sa Canada then after a few days naalala ko sya. Naalala yung mga ginawa, I cried that time and your there beside me. Hindi ako umiyak dahil sa mga ginawa nya dahil bago pala tayo umalis dito after makalabas ng hospital na yun napatawad ko na sya. Hinding hindi ako nagtanim ng galit sa kanya. Then sabay nun yung pagkapanaginip mo sa kanya araw araw, lagi mo sakin sinasabi yung mga napapanaginipan mo. Nagsisisi ka nun what if hindi mo sinabi yung mga bagay na ikakasakit nya at what if nagpa-ubaya ka nalang?"

I...... I remembered those word.... The word I said to him.

"Kaya mo sya napapanaginipan kasi nagi-guilty ka kahit hindi mo naman kasalanan, palagi mong iniisip na kasalanan mo. Maybe Yoongi wants a peace now so forgive yourself. So he can have a peaceful in next life. "

I didn't know I was crying. I felt my wife hug me. I hugged her back tightly. Maybe she's right it's not my fault but guilt keeps hunting me I should forgive myself. Then I opened my eyes and saw Yoongi stand not too far from us smiling like he will be have a peace now. I smiled at him too,  to let him know I'm sorry about that day and I forgive myself now. And We will be okay. I love you brother I promise you I will take care of your son and daughter.

"Are you okay now hubby? It's cold now you will get sick."

I break the hug and look at her.

"I love you so much wifey"

"I love you so much hubby"

I cup her face and kiss her lips. Our kisses are full of love and care about each other. I love her so much as well as our son and daughter. I will never leave them.

So Hi guyss sorry for long update. Super busy at school work. Thank you for waiting my updates and reading my story. I love you all🫶🏻