Insecurities // 2min ✓

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"your so mean!!" Seungmin pouted, turning away from Lee Know. the older smirked and back hugged Seungmin, leaving small kisses on his neck

"mm...am I mean now?"

"I...uh..."

"that's what I thought~"

they were then interrupted with a knock at the door

Lee Know sighed and went to open it

it was Jeongin...

Lee Know stared at the boy before looking over at Seungmin, gestering for him to come over. Seungmin went over and saw who it was, shivers going through his whole body

at this point, Seungmin was still mad, but he felt horrible for calling his best friend a brat

"what do you want?.." he wasn't thinking about the words that were coming out of his mouth anymore. he just wanted to forget everything and move on, but he knows in order for that, they have to talk it out..

"mm..your a bitch...but I'm sorry."

Seungmin didn't answer, instead he looked down at his fist. he thought for a few more seconds, before punching the other boy in the face, making him pass out. he wasnt realizing he let his intrusive thoughts win

Lee Know quickly held onto Seungmin and yanked him back

"what the fuck is wrong with you!?"

"I-..."

Hyunjin heard the thud and quickly came too see. it was horrifying for him to see his boyfriend passed out on the floor....again...

"INNIE!!"

Seungmin just stared, not really caring. Hyunjin carried Jeongin and took one last look at Seungmin. he didn't seem mad at him, he actually seemed worried instead. he then quickly brung Jeongin downstairs

"Seung.."

"what!?" the younger snapped. he was now raging with anger

"whats up with you!?"

"nothing.."

"there is something. you wouldnt just fucking punch someone and casually make them pass out!!"

"IM FUCKING FINE!!"

Seungmin pushed Lee Know away, leaving him in shook

"you know what. that's it. your staying alone, until you can fucking control yourself! your being a complete asshole right now and I hate it." Lee Know was about to leave the room, but stopped

"I still love you though." he then left the room and slammed the door behind him, leaving Seungmin alone

Seungmin went over to the bed and covered himself with the blanket. he then started crying, but not in sadness...but because he was mad

he didn't know why he was feeling like this. he did care his boyfriend just walked out on him, but he didn't know what to do and just let it happen

he didn't realize he was shaking. he hugged the blanket and gripped onto it tightly. he thought about what he did and cried into the blanket

his head started to hurt from all the crying now. he just wanted to forget everything, but he made it worse

negative thoughts started filling his head again

"why did I do that?

what the fuck is wrong with me?

they hate me now

they don't want to see me

maybe I shouldn't have existed

I should die."

Seungmin continued to cry, letting all these negative thoughts fill his mind. he didnt realize it was already near midnight. eventually, he stopped crying, but couldn't sleep. so he stayed in bed, staring...and staring...