The sickness called love(Soukoku)

What is love...?

Tw:mori(pedophile)

Atsushi's pov:

Dazai-San has been acting weird lately he still is a menace but still...

"Dazai-San...?" I said poking Dazai which seemed lost in thought "yes Atsushi-kun!" he said with a childish smile "are you ok...you've been laying there staring for an hour straight now..." I stuttered looking at Dazai as he laid lazily on the agency's couch "yeah just bored..." he said turning his head away from me "Ok then..." I said walking to my desk

Chuuya pov:

I woke up with a huge hangover from the 4 bottles of wine I consumed while thinking about how I'm going to spend my last months...

I got up doing my normal morning routine then made myself some breakfast while I couldn't stop thinking about what that doctor said I sighed as I began to think even more... "what am I going to do..." I sighed my headache getting worse by the second

Then something clicked to my mind "I only have a few more months so let me not waste it..." I though standing up "i mean if this really is the end I shouldn't waste it sitting here...but if so what should I do... I thought then I remembered Aku did give me money for that new puppy movie I mind as well see it before I get back to work...

I went upstairs to my room setting aside the money as I put on a nice causal outfit as I slipped on my gloves as usual I picked up the money then I began walking to the theater

While I was walking I seen a familiar face I tried to ignore it as I walked in the theater waiting in a long line until finally I went up and ordered my ticket as soon as I grabbed it I was met by a familiar voice "I'll get the same" it said

I looked to see none other than Dazai himself I glared at him as he grabbed his ticket "why are you here Osamu..." I demanded "to make up for my mistake..." he said following me to the snack lane the smell of popcorn warmed the air "if that's the case your not helping..." I said dully

He grabbed my hand "please...Chuuya I'm sorry..." his face seemed to soften I looked at him as he seemed to tighten his grip on hand not wanting me to leave I looked at him harshly as I felt his grip loosen he looked down as he finally let go "I just wanted to say I'm sorry...and I love you..." he said looking at me with a soft look "Tch.." I said seeing him leave

Dazai's pov:

I felt the last three words slip out my mouth as I walked away...

I never got what love was especially in a intimate way it never added up to me and when it did it was miserably turned down...

Some years ago

No pov:

"Hello my dear Dazai~" a man said walking up to a 17 year old boy "what do you want Mori..." the boy asked annoyed from the man's presence "I just wanted to check up on you..." he said sitting next to him

Dazai was quiet for a while "what I can't check up on you..." Mori said in a fake whiny voice Dazai just sighed "I think he likes me..." "hm?" Mori said looking at him "I think Chuuya loves me..." "and?..." Mori said in a serious tone "....well I love him too..." Dazai said looking down as little bits of light shined from his eye

"You do understand that love is a great weakness you should never love anyone"Mori said glaring at Dazai "so if I were you in would keep it to yourself...besides I am the only person who would love you Dazai" Mori said with a sadistic smile as he watched the little bit of light that shined from the broken boy's eye dim down...

Dazai pov:

I plopped down lazily on my tatami mat the smell of alcohol present "Do I actually love him..." I shoved my head in my pillow as I heard endless calls from Kunikida I sighed

"What do I do..."