You know that moment when you can't breathe, but you can also feel your chest rising as it fills with air? When you're shaking so much you feel like you're overreacting but you just can't stop. When tears are rolling down your face and everything hurts but you have to stay strong. When you feel everything, yet nothing. Numb.
When time flies by, you barely notice, but it also feels like it's been hours. When you just don't know what's happening.
And when you close your eyes, to forget, but instead, you see what you were so desperatly trying to hide. And you keep seeing it, so you open your eyes and you're scared to close them again. You feel like you can't. When you feel like it's all your fault. Like if maybe you would've been better, more reactive, less paralyzed, it could've been fine.
When you feel everything slip away. When you wonder how you could have changed things.
And the guilt. Well it slowly kills you. You feel like you're being burried alive by your own emotions, crushed underneath the weight of Guilt. Guilt you want gone, but can't make leave, as it sticks to you.
Do you feel like your feelings aren't valid?
Do you feel like you're being dramatic?
Do you feel dead inside?
Do you want it to stop?
Do you want everything to stop?
Do you want to die, but also don't?
Do you know?
Do you know that moment?
The most terrifying moment, the most scarring, the most traumatizing.
Do you know?
YOU ARE READING
L.T.
PoetryIf there was a price in emotion, this book would cost it all... Our tears were melodies that made our feelings a symphony. My life flashed before my eyes. And I got to fall in love with you all over again. I'm fine. But that's a lie.
