TRIGGER WARNING VIOLENCE
AMARA
I sit at the road side and text zoey saying I can't make it to the funeral something came up She replys immediately but I don't bother checking
I just start walking anywhere but Home
I find myself at the playground and sit on the swings, swinging away
The voices in my head keeping me company I'm actually starting to like them better than silence isn't that crazy, maybe I'm crazy.
I don't even focus on my surroundings until I see lili and zoey standing right infront of me
"Are you serious, Lilith's grandma just died and you cant come to the funeral but you have time to come swing around in the playground" I don't say anything
"Why are you being such a bitch she needs you, we all need to be together and you decide to just not come"
"Something came up" I say bluntly
"Are you serious right now" zoey continues
"You promised you will always be there for me" lili says
"Promises are meant to be broken" I feel nothing at this point it's like my heart is made of stone
"How can you say that Amara" lili looks like she's gonna cry but it turns into anger
"Of all the days you decide on this one to show us how fake you are you disappointed everyone. Amara we needed you but you only thought about yourself" she snaps at me
"I can't take it back its already happened can we all just move on already i need to go back to my swinging please" I don't know what's wrong with me but I have lost the ability to feel
"You are such a selfie bitch come talk to us when this act you're putting on is over" it's funny cuz it's not an act
"Yeah sure" I wave them off I don't have the energy for friends right now
I start to swing
After an hour
Xander walks over and sits on the other swing
"Well hey there mind if I join"
Yes "no go ahead" I need to talk to him anyways
"I missed you today I wish you came but I'm sure you have your reasons the girls seem really upset but I didn't believe a word the said"
"Why didn't you" I look down
"Because I love you and my Amara would never hurt anyone's feelings"
I laugh lightly
"What's funny"
"The way you said my" He laughs lightly
"Well you will soon be mine once you give me your answer"
"You don't want to be with me" I say still looking down and laugh a little
"Of course I do"
"Why" I look up dragging the why
"You make me happy Amara you're the light at the end of a dark tunnel I mean it" me and light don't mix at this point
"I fucked Ethan at the beach house" I see looking at him
"What"
"Not once not twice but three four times I think" I put a finger on my chin thinking
His face drops and his eyes are full of sadness
"Why..why would you do that"
"You weren't enough" I shrug
"I'm really sorry but that's the truth"
He stands and paces around
"Do you regret it cuz if you do, I can forgive you and make this work"
"I don't regret it" I say I'm not lying seriously I don't regret doing it
"You can't be serious" I shrug
"This isn't you"
"But it is" I say
"Why are you being like this just tell me you regret doing it please Amara"
"If you want me to lie then yes I regret doing it" I roll my eyes
"You used me to forget him" He says looking away from me
I stand up and stand infront if him
"I didn't use you Xander I do have feelings for you"
"Then why would you do that to me"
"I have no excuse I was just going through something"
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