THE HEART WANTS WHAT IT WANTS

26. DONT LEAVE ME

ETHAN'S POV

I lift her up to my room I lay her down on my bed
I go to the bathroom and prepare a bath for
Once the water is ready
I go back to the room and lift her off the bed to the bathroom

I set her down and ask for permission to remove her clothes
She nods but I need words
"Yes"her voice soft and broken

I remove her clothes and she helps herself in the water
I go start to leave but she holds my hand

"Don't leave me" I can't bring myself to say anything she looks so broken it breaks my heart seeing her like this I wish I could take all her pain away and give it to myself

I sit on the floor next to the tub and just stare at her
She starts to cry again
I take off my clothes only leaving my boxes and get in the water behind her

I hold her in my arms without saying a single word, I just let her cry and scream out all the pain she's feeling 

I want her to talk to me but I can't force her
I need to know what she meant when she said he killed her baby
Was she pregnant
If she was that, I could have been a father

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XANDER

seeing her cry in Ethan's arms hurt but what broke me is how much pain she is in

I don't care who's arms she's in I just want her pain to go away I can't bare seeing her like that

I hear her again after Ethan took her up to his room
I want to go to her but Lilith stops me
"His got her" I drop my head down and go outside for a smoke

I get my phone our and call the prison that asshole is in
I tell the guards I need to speak to one of the prisoners

"Yo Enzo whatsup man"
"I need you to beat up someone for me every fucking day"
"I got you bro who it is"

I give him the details
I can't let him kill him not yet he needs to feel the same pain Amara is feeling and then I'll kill him myself 

I inhale feeling my mind start to relax
But Amara's cries are still bombing in the house
"Fuck!"

Why couldn't I protect her I had one job and I couldn't do that
I need to talk to her
She was pregnant and she didn't tell me
That's could have been my baby

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Lilith

I go up to Ethans room and sit outside the door with Zoey listening to Amara cry

We are both crying but nothing can compare to Amara's screams
I screamed the same when I found my grandma's cold dead body

I can't say our pain is the same but I understand how she's feeling
I want to hold her the way she did the way she always had

I know my heart hurts that Ethan is with her but at the same time I happy he's with her
He's the only one who didn't give up on her

Even after everyone was against her
He couldn't hear anything said against her
Nomatter how much she hurt him, he still wanted to talk her, to find out why she said what she said

That just proves how much he loves her I'll never be her but at this point I want her to be happy again even if it's with Ethan

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Zoey

The award for worst bestfriend ever goes to
Zoey

How couldn't I see it from the arguments with her parents to the way she never wanted me to use the door

I thought it was just a normal thing parents do fight I just didn't know it was physical

The more I hear her scream the more my heart breaks into a million pieces

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Ryan

I should have done something from the first I was the best person for her to talk to but not to comfort her

Two broken souls can't fix each other
They only understand each other

I understood her and i knew the pain she would feel after but I still kept quiet 

I hit my hands on the steering wheel
Her cries still in my mind
I should have done something I blame myself for all this
It wouldn't have gone this far if I just did something

I'm so sorry Amara

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Marcus

She helped me find my soulmate
I wish I protected her like a brother but I couldn't

I chased her away when she needed someone
I couldn't see through her hurtful words

I should have looked closer to see the pain she was hiding behind her gold/gray eyes

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Kourtney

The cry for help
Not just any ordinary help
Like from wounds or scars
It's the inner child crying for help

Watching the person you thought would protect you betray you
I know that cry all to well

I have heard that cry before
From me

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ETHAN

I get her out and dry her off before drying myself
I walk her to my closet and pick out a hoodie and some sweatpants

I dress her up and she enters the covers of my bed
I get dressed quickly and walk over kneeling down

I push her hair away from her face and kiss her forehead lightly
"I'm going to get you some food I'll be right back okay" she nods

I open the door
Lili and zoey fall back into the room
"Oops" zoey says with tear stained face

I close the door
Now isn't the time for them to talk to her it's to much for one day

I run downstairs looking for Xander
His in the kitchen with Marcus perfect
"Cook Amaras favourite and take it up to her" I turn to leave but he stops me

"I think we can all see she needs you more than anyone else"
"She needs us all We can't turn our backs away from her just because we're scared"
"Why can't you take it"
"I can only do so much she needs you too even if she doesn't show it" I smile and walk away

"Also don't show her pity she doesn't like that" and I'm out the door

I want to be the one there for her but I can't help thinking she's in love with Xander and I can't keep them apart
Even if it means forcing them together
I can't keep him away from his love
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