THE HEART WANTS WHAT IT WANTS

11.I GOT YOU

AMARA
Right after my date I got a call from zoey she was sobbing and I didn't need her to ask me anything I was already on my way

Ethan picked me up. He was going to meet up with Ryan by the nearby park.

We got there and zoey was on the steps
"Are you crying" Ethan laughs and i smuck the back of his head
"Shut up" I say and sit next to zoey, she leans in and I give her a tight hug

"Leo he..he cheated" she says between sobs I look up at Ethan and his eyes turn dark
"I'll see you guys later" and he walks off probably going to kill Leo

"Come lets go watch movies and eat junk food, you're mum won't know" I grin

It's been 5hours of crying, screaming, cursing and laughing
And now she's asleep I'm exhausted to and I drift off

I wake up to the sound of sobbing and run to the bathroom quickly. I find zoey on the floor hugging her legs shaking she's next to a digital scale
Drugs on the sink and in her hands

Chatting the words weakness is for loses and I must be perfect
I rush to her lifting her head up
"Look at me" she doesn't her eyes are closed. I want to cry but the tears don't fall.

"Zoey look at me" I say a little louder and she opens her eyes.
There is so much pain, I can't even form words, I just hug her and she cries in my arms

"It's okay" she sobs
"It's okay Zoey I got you"
She sobs louder and my heart breaks

"I.. hav..I have.. to..to be perf..."She says between sobs
"No. No you don't Zoey, there's no such thing has perfect" she looks up at me tears in her eyes

"Bu..but ..my..my mum is"
I shake my head
"No she's not, she's pretending to be. Everyone has flows, everyone makes mistakes, we learn from those mistakes and move on No body is perfect"

"Perfection doesn't exist zoey we are all just humans. stop trying to be perfect and just be who you want to be not what you're mother thinks you can be"

She lays her head on my lap, I take away the pill from her hand and throw it away

"You don't need these. I don't want to lose my friend to drugs"
"Will you be my drug Amara? take the pain away" I nod really fast

"Always zoey always" I hold her tighter and her sobs become quieter

The sun wakes us both at the same time, we are still in the bathroom and we decide to freshen up.
She takes the tub and I take the shower. we get cleaned up and go down for breakfast
We eat in silence and head back upstairs
She still looks sad but I know she'll get over it she'll be okay

"Omg thee zoey just cried over a boy" I tease
"Shut up bitch you did too" she smirks
"I guess we've both been idiots"
She laughs lightly

"But hey, its there lose. I mean look at us, we are drop dead gorgeous and we will only get prettier from here onwards.
No more crying" she giggles
"No more crying" we pinky swear

I spent about 2more hours before I left
"You got this babe don't let any man take away your happiness. call me when you feel like taking a pill, I'm your drug remember that" I hug her and head out

Lili calls me while I'm on the bus she asks me to come over and I don't hesitate
I find her cooking in the kitchen already letting myself in

"What's up"
"My grandmother had a heart attack" she cries and I give her a hug
Lili lives with her grandmother.
After her father died things were never the same. Her mum went crazy and kept asking lili where her dad was. It was clear she needed help so, she was taken to a special hospital