THE HEART WANTS WHAT IT WANTS

13.DEATH

I'm so sorry to anyone I have offended with this chapter
Please read the words and Understand them I'm not making fun of anyone's situation and if you feel offened I'm truly sorry
Mention of suicide drugs and self-harming

Happy reading...

AMARA
Heartbreak
We've all been through it. Some end the relationship before the can get heartbroken. But leaving a good relationship just because you're scared can cause your heart to shatter

Seeing the person you once dreamt of building and starting a family with doing the same with another leaves the heart shattered into a million pieces

But what hurts more is TRUST
Trusting someone, giving them your all, just for them to throw that trust away and laugh in your face

You cry and cry, but that doesn't change anything. Only leads to regret on why you would cry over a fool who didn't appreciate you, who doesn't deserve you, who didn't respect you

And then all the sudden, you know your worth and you're doing all the skin care and getting your mind right. Going to the gym and eating right.

You become cold and heartless
You miss the old you but, the new you needs to be loved too
You tell yourself you won't let you're guard down for the next guy

But the problem is, He's also heartbroken, he also went through the same thing and he told himself the same thing. Now both of you are having a stare down

He can't spend on you cuz, he went to much on the last one
You won't give him anything cuz you gave to much to the last
Now what

You're both damaged who will risk the last piece of love and give it away first
Who will trust first
Who will fall first and fall harder

My ex was an amazing guy in the beginning. He was sweet and caring and loving I guess that's how the all are .

But then things changed when he suddenly became one of the popular kids
He became rude, disrespectful and treated me like shit but I still stayed with him. I fell in love with him hard

I didn't listen to my friends when the told me he was cheating because I trusted him

I never knew I could ever go through a heartbreak. I never let my guard down when it came to boys, I broke up with them first before the could break me

But My ex was different, how different? I don't know and I just few hard. I always had hope that he would go back to the sweet loving guy I few for but, he never did and I just stayed. waiting.

I didn't ask him about the rumours because I was afraid of the answer so I kept quiet so I could keep him

I found out about him sleeping with the one girl I warned him to stay away from. He always said, she was just a friend and I that shouldn't worry

Sometimes he would say I was being paranoid and that nothing could happen between them.
I laugh at how stupid I was to believe him to trust him

My heart broke that day. For the first time, I went through a heartbreak

Well at first I didn't know how to feel the answer I was afraid of finally came and I couldn't find it in me to process everything

Until I saw him. 1week after our breakup walking with the same girl and kissing her right infront of me

That day I lost the will to love and be loved I stopped Trusting anyone and I don't think I ever will I guess you can say I'm scared of falling in love

Heartbreak is so painful I wouldn't want to go through it again
Dating is so stressful I don't want to go through that stress again