Married to Chandler Riggs // I Waited

Chapter 19: Fight

I rushed to the hospital with Trevor in the back seat holding Rosie, and Annie in the passenger seat. Annie's head was against the window. She was crying. I reached over and held her hand. Rosie was crying into Trevor's shoulder yelling "Mommy!"
"Shhhhh, it's going to be ok." Trevor said in a soothing voice. I tear fell down my face and I wiped it. I pulled in to the parking lot and we all got out of the car. Trevor handed me Rosie and we walked in, Annie linked in arms with Trevor. Oh how much I wished Chandler was here. I ran up to the front desk.
"My aunt was in a car accident. What room is she in?"
"Name?" I told her the name and all four of us walked to her room. The doctor stood in the hallway.
"Are you here to see Julie?"
"Yes." I said wiping a tear
"She's lucky. Just some whiplash and and some bruises."
"Thank you!" I said. We all entered the room. Rosie ran to her mom
"Mommy!!!" She yelled with tears running down her face. She jumped on the bed and gave her a big hug.
"Rosie, it's ok."
"I thought you were gone!" Rosie said
"Honey I could never leave." She said. One day I'll be a great mom I said to myself. I walked over to her bedside. "You scared us!" I said
"I know I'm sorry."
"Is mom coming?" Annie asked
"The nurse called them." She said. We all got up except Trevor and gave her a big hug. After my family got there we left leaving Rosie with them. We got in the car and I turned on the engine.
"Still up for that movie?" Trevor said
"Funny." Annie said
"I think in going to go home." Trevor said
"No, please. I need you right now." Annie said. Hang in there Bailey, 6 more months! We drove back to the apparent after we got dinner at chickfila. It was late. I opened the door and plopped on the couch. Trevor walked in the kitchen and got some water and Annie sat next to me.
"I don't think I can do this." I said to Annie as a tear streamed down my face. She took my hand
"Do what?"
"Wait. It's hard." She rubbed my back and pulled me into her hold.
"B you can't give up. You love Chandler more than his mother! Do you really want to let that go?"
"No but-"
"No, No! No buts. You have 6 months you are going to get this done. You will wait because you are going to be walking in to the temple soon. You are getting married to the man of your dreams, your prince. B you can't let that go."
"I just want him with me. I want to play snowball fights and cook dinner together, and go to church together. And get to hug him."
"I know it's hard, I know. But you have to fight to urge to give up. I promise you if you walk away it will be the worst mistake of your life." I nodded my head even Trevor was getting a littler teary eyed.
"B you can't give up." Trevor said I nodded my head
"I'm going to take Trevor back. You take a long bath, get out all your tears and get some more wedding plans done." Annie said
"Ok. Thanks you guys."
"Your welcome." After they walked out I got my towel and my phone. I drew my bath and threw in a bath bomb. I got in and sat there. I remembered my 3rd year at girls camp. I still remember the song we had at spiritual night, the one that made me cry because it was so powerful. I got out and played it on my phone:
Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion

And all those things I didn't say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm alright song
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

Losing friends and I'm chasing sleep
Everybody's worried about me
In too deep
Say I'm in too deep (in too deep)
And it's been two years
I miss my home
But there's a fire burning in my bones
And I still believe
Yeah I still believe

And all those things I didn't say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm alright song
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

A lot of fight left in me

Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm alright song
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong (I'll be strong)
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

Now I've still got a lot of fight left in me

The words take back. my life hit me hard that day. I remember it so well. I felt the spirit the strongest I've ever felt it. The YCL's (youth camp leaders) had a sheet hung up with stars on it and behind the sheet tree girls were back there: one sitting in a chair with a crown another standing in front of the girl the other shinning a light so you could see their shadows. The girl sitting in the chair was a princess or queen and she didn't believe in her self but the girl in front of her did. The queen put her crown on the ground and the other girl picked it up and put it back on because she believed in her. Then all like 25 YCL's gathered behind the sheet and wen the song started one girl sang in to the mic for the first part and as soon as "this is my fight song!" Came on the girls ran out running around each section of chairs. Wen they got to the end of the song they all froze and the part wen they say "I can make an explosion" they all through confetti in the air. That night was amazing. I miss camp so much. Camp changes a person. Camp is amazing! I love camp so much. At camp you have fun you do all nighters, you dance and sing camp songs, but most of all you lean who you are and your testimony grows strong. And you lean how to fight for yourself and what you believe in. You make friends and establish relationships with girls and become amazing friends. Girls camp is a camp like no other. You have fun but at the same time you feel the spirit and you just know this is true, this is right, I'm doing things that are going to help me for many years to come. Camp is wen you grow into a young woman. Camp is a spiritual place. I remember a bishops night my friend charity, went crazy, she was loopy and nuts. We said it was because of testimony meeting, we called her spiritually drunk.

I got out of my bath and layed in my bed. Annie walked in and we layed together on the bed on our backs.
"You good?" She asked
"Yup. You dating Trevor?"
"Yup. You ready for bed?"
"Yup. Hey do you remember our 4 th year at girls camp?"
"This is my fight song!!"
"Haha yes!"
"I miss girls camp. That place really moves you." Annie said
"I really does. Goodnight."
"Goodnight."
"Love you."
"Love you too."