He was my bully (completed)

Emotions

I walked out grabbed a brush and started painting.
4 hours later
"Sam you Ok" Zeke asked. "Yeah just peachy why would you ask" I said mindlessly painting the same spot. "Because you have been painting the same spot for like twenty minutes" he said. "I'm fine" I spat. "You don't seem fine" he said turning me by my shoulder making me face him getting paint on my shirt. "Ugh guys are so unreliable" I spat again "Sam I'm sorry" he said again. "Guys are always sorry first it's paint on a shirt then a hit to the stomach then you kiss me making me like you the you leave and have sex with another girl and I have to make you seem like some God to you sister because you'r hook up is you top priority!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I said screaming at him hitting him with my blue paint brush getting blue all over his white shirt. Two arms went around me holding my arms down but pulling me into him Zeke left the room and I broke down. "Shhuu it's ganna be Ok" it was Toby and I started crying more as I leaned into him. "Sam go to my room, take a shower change into something comfy and relax ok" he whispered in my ear I nodded went into my suitcase and got shorts and a crop top. I walked in Toby's room to see his room was done Chaz and Ryan were now doing the basement walls a bright orange. When I got in the shower I let the hot water run down my body and honestly it felt good. When I got out I put on my shorts and crop and sat in the middle of the floor. Chaz and Ryan walked in Ryan stayed by the entrance while Chaz came and sat next to me. "What happened" Chaz asked. "You said he was a good guy well I don't know your definition of good guy" I said getting mad again. "Sam who did I say was a good guy" he asked sitting in front of me. "Justin.....you said he was a good guy" I said again. "Sam I'm sorry" Chaz said. "Everyone is sorry but sorry doesn't make me feel better it's just a word" I said standing up and walking away. "Sam when I say sorry I mean it to tell you how bad I feel I don't say it just to say it" he said. "Your right, sorry Chaz your just trying to be a good friend and I'm being a brat" I said walking towards him giving him a hug. "It's Ok you need to sleep" he said I nodded he sat on the floor and I layed in his lap like I did with Justin by the lockers. "Sam" he whispered "yeah" I whispered back. "Your Emotions are pretty wierd like you rarely cry and when you do it's like a waterfall otherwise you just don't cry" he said "I don't like to cry" I said simply "it's not healthy to just hold everything in and not nice to scare of Zeke by killing him with blue paint" he said laughing I nodded while laughing. "Hey were done with Sam's room and Toby's and by the looks of it with the basement also, so Ryan, Marco wants you in Jazzy's room with Zeke and Chaz you in Jessie's room with Jazzy and Jessie" Toby said Chaz nodded kissed my forehead and left me with Tobs. He sat next to me then pulled me on his lap. "We're almost done painting the rooms tomorrow we are going to put everything in the rooms and then we can go shopping which you probably already have stuff in mind so that won't be hard" Toby said I nodded snuggling into him "what time is it" I asked "6:38" he answered I nodded and just started to think.
Conversation with subconscious
Why did I react this way that was so dumb
tell me about it he wasn't your boyfriend
He acted like he wanted to be so it's like your boyfriend cheating on you
with his real girlfriend
Just can it already
well think about it genius you probably ment nothing to him all you were was something to make him happy for the time being
No that's not true he liked me
tell yourself whatever makes you happy but you and I both know it's not true
"Wake me up in a bit Ok" I asked "yeah now get some sleep" he said kissing the top of my head. What's up with that, first Chaz now Toby I guess I'm the baby of the guys. "Wakey wakey Sam" who I'm guessing was Toby. "Hey morning Tobs" i said sitting up out of Toby. "I would say morning but that would indicate that its morning" he chuckled. "What time is it" I asked "7:46" he said "did they already eat" I asked he shook his head no "why not?" I asked. "Because they are waiting for you" he said quietly "oh I'm going to go cook" i said standing up. "Sam you ok now" Toby asked "I can handle myself better" I said walking upstairs. "Sammy sammy we're hungry" Jazzy and Jessie said "how about taco's" I said they nodded "I'm making taco's!" I yelled "I can help" Chaz said walking into the kitchen. "Hey so what do you want me to do" Chaz said "I'm making make your own taco so just cut up stuff get the stuff out of the frige I will cook the meat" I said getting the meat out of the freezer. "Sam I know you don't want to hear this but I'm sorry I shouldn't have gave you the impression that Justin was a good guy I just thought...." he started "Chaz it's not your fault I basically pressured you into saying he was a good guy" I said frying the meat. "Foods done" I said smiling bringing out the food. "Sam can you make me a taco" Jessie asked "yeah what do you want" I asked after she told me I made her, Jazzy's and my taco's. "Toby we should get a table with an umbrella on it so we can eat outside it would be so nice" I said admiring the view outside "anything you want" Toby said kissing my head. "We put the beds back in the girls room but that's all we had time for so do you want to sleep at Marco's with the girls or....." Ryan asked "I can stay here with the girls you guys can leave" I said. "Nope that wasn't the deal if you stay here so will Toby" Marco said. "Tobs..." I said "yeah I guess" he said. "Come on girls let's get changed" I said. "Bye Marco, bye Ryan,bye Chaz" I said they waved and left.
"Sam,Toby can you sleep with us tonight" Jazzy and Jessie asked I looked at Tobs questionably "sure" I said. After shutting off the lights I went into the room to see Toby cuddling with Jazz and Jessie I pulled out my phone and snapped a few pictures aww they are so cute my 3 favorite people all cuddled up I quick put it as my screen saver. "So cute <3" I said showimg him the picture he smiled shaking head. "Whatever". My phone vibrated in my hand I got a text.
*Hey Sam
*Sam are you going to text back
*Sam please text back
*How are the girls do they know
*Sam I know I should have told you
*Sam are we still....
*Sam I said I'm sorry text back
*Sam whatever fine be a bitch, I can't stand to talk to you,I want both the girls you will never see them again, and your just jealous I got another girl before you even got another guy
*Sam I'm sorry for what I said please I take it back I don't like that slut she was a fling and I know the girls are in better care with you.#please forgive me
~Justin seriously just chill I don't care what you think of me, I told the girls you were doing a song and you may think I don't have a guy but you are wrong I'm dating, and trust me I know the girls are in better care with me that doesn't mean I'm taking them away from you you are seriously bipolar
*Sam!! I missed you are you Ok, and what do you mean you have a boyfriend, I like you so much
~oh shut up if you liked me you wouldn't have had sex with some chick goodnight Justin.
*but I really do like you Sam
~goodnight Justin
*night Sam
"Night Sammy" Jazymyn said "Night Jazz" I said kissing her cheek she cuddled into me making me closer to Tobs and Jessie.