Deadly Games

A Brightly Colored World

Everything just seems
to be a blur of colour.
All I can focus on
Is the black and white;
what is and what isn't.
But even the blackest black
and the whitest whites
are all fading into the same dull grey.
I cannot experience the colour
around me.
It's a movie
I did not get cast in.
I'm sitting in front of the screen
watching.
Desperately trying to fathom
the blurry lines into
conscious pictures.
Useless
Hopeless
Pointless.
I give up.
I can't understand the world
for its beauty and joy.
I never have.
I probably never will.
I am not capable of what they expect
of me.
"I am a black and white girl
in a brightly coloured world."
(e.b)