ᴏᴍɴɪꜱᴄɪᴇɴᴛ ᴘᴏᴠ
ʜᴀᴍᴘᴛᴏɴꜱ, ɴᴇᴡ ʏᴏʀᴋ
11:00 ᴘ.ᴍ.
Angel stood against the kitchen counter looking every where else except for at Benji.
She was on the counter, down and across from her with her hands tucked into her pockets. It's only been a minute since Autumn left them alone but it felt like twenty minutes had passed.
Benji wasn't sure what to even say to her. She didn't even have anything to say.
Checking the time on her phone she stood up straight. It was getting late and she had a studio session in the morning so her being here sitting in silence was kind of making her irritated.
"I'm going to head out." She said getting ready to make her way out of the kitchen
"I'm sorry." Angel said making Benji stop in her tracks and stay leaned against the countertop
"I'm so sorry. What I did- what I'm doing to you is wrong."
Benji stared at her "Why? Why the up and down games?"
Angel slightly shrugged "I-i don't know."
Benji shook her head "Right now, I don't know isn't an answer for me. You're a grown ass woman so give me a grown answer."
She began to fidget with her nails looking down. She never hated speaking on her feelings until now.
She mumbled something making Benji give her a confused face.
"Angel, just talk to me. I won't know how you're feeling too if you don't tell me."
She didn't say anything so Benji thought about what Autumn said a few minutes prior about giving her some reassurance. She decided to speak on her feelings and hopefully it made her put down this wall she had up.
"When we first talked that day at my crib, I wasn't sure how we were going to be able to move past that and become friends again. But when we did, it was cool. It was like I had my best friend back." She chuckled
"But when I told you about me and Robyn it was like everything we were working on in our friendship stopped. It's like we went forward but then ten steps back. And I understand you were hurt and I got why you felt the way you felt. I wouldn't be your biggest fan if you fucked with one of my homies. I apologize for that, it wasn't my smartest move. I just think that she was there at the moments when you couldn't be. When it was me and you, you want to cuddle, you wanted to talk about anything and everything but when Malakai comes around it's like I'm invisible and like nothing we talk about on our own didn't matter. And i get that you just was trying to avoid him feeling some type of way with me being around you and us hanging out...
She paused "But he was just going to have to feel the way he felt because I'm not going to turn off my feelings for an insecure ass nigga."
"And I don't condone cheating and I'm never trying to wreck a relationship and that night in Philly I heard that y'all had broke up. So when we had sex, in my mind I'm thinking we could finally get to take that big step and start taking each other serious. Definitely got my feelings hurt when I woke up and seen that text message." She chuckled
"I don't know why I thought you was going to leave a nigga you been with for years now for me." She shook her head
"You fucked me up for days. I started to kind of second guess myself and asking questions... mainly why. Why forgive me if you obviously wasn't fully ready? Why drag me around and play with my feelings? I keep showing you that I want you and that I'm just trying to love you but you keep making it harder than what it has to be. Everyone see you ain't happy with dude, so why are you staying with him? I just don't understand why you allow things but then turn around and double back. It's truly fucking with my head, mama." Benji expressed
