Austin and I met the rest of the group at the El Lobo.
To be honest, when we left the dinner, I felt like I was leaving all the past behind. I've got what I needed to have. I heard what I needed to know. It was like the light at the end of this tunnel finally came into sight for me and I was able to move passed by it when we let go of it. It was painful to admit, but it wouldn't be painful if we didn't love each other.
I loved Lukas and whatever we had would be in my past now and an experience to live.
Austin witnessed, not all of it, but how it unfolds.
Bukod sa bestie kong si Cory, si Austin lang din ang halos napagsabihan ko tungkol sa past relationship ko. When I got on the island, I know I had to find a way to keep it away from hindering my happiness. I was able to do it and let it all pass by me, but some days, emotions were too strong it was pulling me back in. Hindi ko rin naman talaga masisisi ang sarili ko.
I only love someone else and there was nothing wrong with that.
As soon as we reached the club, we were the first ones to get there from the group. Kady texted Austin na papunta lamang sila. We started looking for a spot for us. Pagpasok pa lang din kasi namin ay maririnig na ang tugtugan mula sa labas. For sure, marami nang tao sa loob. Lima pa silang papunta galing dinner kaya naman pina-reserve na namin ni Austin ang table with seven seats. It was an open club. Para lang kaming nasa isang malaking cabana. It was on the second floor and as soon as we got inside, the lights were dimmed and shifting neutral lights were blinding.
When someone assisted us to our table, we were able to look around and see what was going on. There were a lot of people and it seemed like everyone was having fun dancing around with drinks in their hands.
"How are you feeling now?" Austin asked as we settled down.
Huminga ako nang malalim saka ko iyon dahan-dahang pinakawalan. My chest felt so light that the burden I was feeling was finally lifted up.
"I feel so good," nakangiti kong sagot sa kanya.
Ngiti rin naman ang namutawi sa mukha niya. "That's good. I'm glad you were able to talk to him. I think facing him knowing everything that happened recently was a commendable act from you. I'm so proud of you."
"Thank you. . . Can I get a kiss now?"
He chuckled. His arm was resting behind my back on the chair, he put his hand behind my back. "If I could in front of these people, I would. . . But I guess, you'll get it later." Ngisi pa nito.
I know Austin has still reservations about his gender. Wala namang problema iyon sa akin. I wouldn't force him to come out of the closet when in fact, I should be honored in some way because I think I was the only one he told me about it. So, I cannot blame his choices and preferences, but it was nice to know that he likes me.
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