jealous girl || bill kaulitz

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y/n's pov

"what the fuck, bill?! you scared the shit out of me!" i yell at him, pushing him away from me.

"i'm sorry, i just- i just really need to talk to you." he whispers, his eyes locking on mine in a serious manner.

"what is there to talk about? you left me, bill." i say, muttering the last part.

"there's more to it." he says.

"you know what? i don't care. if i'm gonna be your side piece i'm not doing this shit, bill. so leave me alone." i angrily say, about to reach for the door, but he gently grabs my hand, his body colliding against mine.

"you mean so so much to me, y/n. you were never my side piece." he softly says, his hand reaching up to my hair and twirling a loose piece between his fingers.

"why are you doing this to me? you took my fucking virginity, bill. and then you just started ignoring me and went back to her. did you forget what she did to you?" i cry, becoming frustrated with him.

his eyes soften and he cups my face in his hands. "i can explain everything to you, if you want me to. or you can leave and go back to tom. it's your choice, love." he whispers, his eyes scanning mine.

my breath hitches and i want him to explain, but i don't want my night ruined. his explanation was probably shitty, anyway.

"not now, bill." i mutter and push him away, reaching for the door and opening it. i probably look like ass right now.

i fix my hair as i begin to walk down the hallway, actually finding the bathroom this time. i walk in, scanning the glorious bathroom.

damn, i bet the toilets are made of gold at this rate.

i fixed my outfit and hair along with my makeup and then just stood there, thinking of everything that had happened.

i wanted to know, but another part of me didn't. his explanation would probably be useless and i'd end up getting my feelings hurt again.

i exited the bathroom, heading towards the dinner party. i found tom sitting alone at the table with celebrities coming up to him and chatting. of course women.

"y/n." he smiles, but frowns a little when he sees how upset i look. "what's wrong?" he asks.

"nothing, i just got lost." i say, chuckling a bit. it was at least half the truth. i didn't think it was necessary for tom to know what had happened.

he nods, his eyes focusing on the two women in front of him. i had never seen them before, maybe they were plus ones?

"well, my new photoshoot is about to appear in the playboy magazines." one of the girls boasts, making me slightly cringe.

tom nods and begins speaking to the two about other things that i didn't pay attention to. i looked over, noticing aurora wasn't at the table. weird.

i looked around, attempting to find her but i couldn't. i wondered what she was doing. i rolled my eyes internally and awkwardly sat there, eyeing all the celebrities.

nick cannon, lindsay lohan, rihanna, christina ricci. i admired all of them.

soom, the food came out and we all began to eat. bill was still nowhere to be found.

"did you see bill anywhere?" tom asks me, and i hesitate before i shake my head. "no, why?" i question as i look down at the luxurious food.

"he went your direction, i thougjt you'd see him." he mutters, shrugging his shoulders. i stay silent and think for a moment.