why me

14

I was drowning. My body wanted to jump out of my skin. I woke in a sweat from another nightmare, and I was fidgeting all over.
"One" I call, clawing myself out of my drenched night clothes. "One!" I repeate.
I hear my door open moments later, to find the cool headed android.
"Whats do you need megan?" She asks me.
"I need a sedative." I respond. It had been two weeks now and my nerves still hadn't calmed down at all. I was trapped in a house with my kidnapper on a strange planet far away from my home. I was drowning.
"Please now." I call.
"I will give you one. It is recommended by my creatures to start reducing the amount of sedatives at this time." She responds.
I didn't care what the recommendation was I was about to combust on the spot.
"One I need it now." I say
She makes her way to my side and pulls a pill from the inner cabinet on my nightstand.
"Thank god." I respond and wolf it down then lay back down waiting for it to take effect.
"Align has sent a message that he will not be seeing you for two weeks." One said.
I relax even further into the cushions trying to ignore that man's name.
"Please don't speak about ailign while I'm panicking." I say flustered.
She looks down at me and processes for a moment.
"I see it was inappropriate now. I will consider your mood when bringing up traumatic people in the future." She says.
I ignore her as I continue to try to calm down.
"One." I finally say
"What do you need megan." She says.
I sit and wait, listening to the howling wind outside ravish the windows. The scent of lemons and pepper in the air helping to calm my nerves.
"How long until I see the other human females?" I ask absently.
"Another two months and a half by the earth calander." She responds
Two and a half months. That was so long to be alone. I wondered how much more t.v. I could stand. My nerves finally somewhat settled I sit up and look at one. She looks back at me silently.
"What are we going to do today one? I'm a little tired of watching t.v." I say
"We have our therapy session and then you have the rest of the day to relax." She says
Therapy with one was helping slightly already but her animetromic responses didn't give me the comfort a real human would. It was cold and somewhat hollow.
"I'd like to go to the facility earlier if that's possible." I say
"Ailign has set your grace period before entering the facility to three months." She says
"Can you request for me to go earlier?" I ask
"Yes I can. Would you like me to?" She asks.
"Yes please do that one." I sigh "now with that settled let's get our therapy over with now. We might as well."
"First let's get you dressed." She countered. Good point. I was still naked.
One was sitting across the couch from me in the second living room. The room was a cool blue, with sleek white couches and chairs. The style a mix between the sleak alien look and bohemian human style.
"I want you to tell me what triggered you today if you can." One said
"It was a nightmare again." I respond.
"Nightmares can sometimes highlight our fears. Would you like to go into more detail?" She said.
"It was my parents. They came to see me in this home. They looked happy to see me. Ailign greated them like we were a family." I said. I pause then my nerves starting to get to me.
"A show of parental exceptance in a nonsafe space can bring about terrible feelings. Are you afraid of feeling like a family with ailign?" She asks
"I'm not sure. He's my abuser so I don't see how I ever could be on friendly terms with him. Or thay I want to." I say
"Let's go back to the beginning of the dream. What expression was on your parents face when they first entered the house? Were they hesitant at first or happy?" She asks
"They were just happy like we had all been this one big happy family forever. It was creepy." I say.
"And what was your response to ailign in this dream?" She asks
"I was confused at first but I knew we were married and that it was normal, so I went along with it, the whole time something bugging me in the back of my mind. Screaming that it was wrong." I say
"Do you think there is something wrong with the way you are treating ailign now?" She asks.
"Yes. And no. I'm so scared it's hard to act the way I want too. Even with sedatives." I say
"And if you didn't have sedatives how would you treat ailign?" She asks
"I would yell at him first of all. Yell and call him names. Probably spit in his face." I hoist my legs up as I become more comfortable. "Even these sessions feel like a betrale to my feelings. Just going along with what you people have planned for me."
"You people. As in the mech people?" She asks
"The mech people. Ailign. Fuck even you it feels like" I answer
"And how would you feel if you were here with jake right now? Would you feel differently then you do now?" She asks
Now thay was a loaded question. I sit and thing about it for a moment, contemplating how I really would feel if Jake dragged me to this strange world. I knew it'd be better and I wouldn't be so scared. But feeling like I lost my freedom? No I'd still feel the same.
"I think I'd still feel trapped." I finally conclude.
"And your family? Would they be happy to see you?" She asks
"Of course not. They'd never wish any prison on me." I angrily anounce.
"You have options megan. Not yet but you will have options if you so choose. You'll learn about them when you start school." She says
"But I don't have the option to return home." I point out.
"No. You don't have that." She answers.
The rest of the session continues on. It was mainly one promoting me to explore my own feelings. I wondered absently still if a human therapist would be better. How amazing it'd be if there was one at the facility but I doubted it I'd get that lucky.
One was in the kitchen preparing my meal when I decided to explore the house again looking for anything to get me out of there. Everyspace was filled with the same things dead ends. All the windows were locked and doors beyond my space sealed shut. I came to a stop infront of the door leading to aliens door and placed my palm on the pad. It beeped red and didn't open. Not surprising.
A long sigh escaped my lips as I tried again. It wouldn't open. With my head held low I make my way back to one and the smell of food cooking.
"Megan. Your request to visit the facility early had been approved. You may now go in two weeks. After your next visit from ailign." One says
"Great." I answer and take my place at the island. She hand me the plate of food and I absently pick at it. The rest of thay day went by in a blur.