why me

22

Ailign was coming back. One informed me that he'd be seeing me later that afternoon. All the rules had changed in a matter of weeks. I'd have one month before he touched me again. Only one month. My security blanket of a year had been blown away.
"Roge when are you heading back?" I ask absently. I was laying in my favorite spot, the couch in the human styled living room, just staring at the pillow in front of me. Dead to the world.
"Now. My mate is very excited" he says 
"It must be nice" I grumble to myself.
He looks at my sympathically then. I was tired of that look he gave me when I spoke my feelings. I was tired of being pittied. Roge didn't do it often but I knew he felt sorry for me.
"Can I give you a hug before you leave?" I ask
"It's against custome for opposite sexs to touch if their not mates." Roge says
"Ah, wouldn't want that" I say
"You'll never be happily mated with that attitude." Roge says
"Thanks mom" I grumble out.
He laughs and the mood lightens some.
"Come visit us sometime. Amy would be happy to have you over. She's tired of just my company all the time." He says
"I'll have to do that sometime... if ailign lets me" I say with a small smile.
"Ah well I'm sure he will. He's a fair prince." He says. He let's out a long sigh, his hands going to his hips.
"Ok this atmosphere is seriously depressing. I wish I could take you with me and I would if I could. I promise your always welcome at our house. I'll have Amy keep an eye out for you at the facility." He says.
Tears start to well in my eyes but I quickly wipe them away. Roge had made the house seem normal, seem fun again during his stay. It would all go back however to the lonely quite space when he left.
"Thanks roge." I say "that means a lot."
He gives me a small smile back.
"It's time to leave now. Ailign has just entered the building." One says
He then reaches for my hand and squeezes it tightly.
"screw custom" He says
I give him a genuine smile then and squeeze his hand back.
"By megan" He says
"By roge" I answer back.
Roge then makes his way down the long hallway that lead to the exit. I watch his silowet disappear slowly in the distance. The tapping of his shoes like nails in my gut.
"One how much longer until ailign comes to see me" I ask. I was already dressed for his arrival, one insisting apon it when I woke.
"I will send a request for more information." She said
We wait a moment in silence. I go back to watching my pillow, my mind feeling numb. I count the little flowers on it. 14....18...23...
"He will be here in five minutes." She says
34.....57....66.....72....84..
"That's nice" I say absently.
"Would you like a sedative?" She asks me
"Yes" I say and silently lift my hand over the top of the couch, waiting patiently for my happy pill. She plops it down on my hand and I gulp the little thing down, with some water that was on the coffee table.
More footsteps come down the hallway and towards me. Tap. Tap. Tap. Nail after nail hits my gut but I don't care. The foot steps finally come to a hault at the back of the couch but I don't look up.
"Megan" ailign says
"Prince" I answer back
"Look at me" He says
I wonder at his request and why he would make it, but does the reason really matter? I tear my eyes from the pillow and my counting to meet his gaze.
"Whats wrong with you?" He asks me
"I'm sad" I say
He nods like that was an adequate answer. He looked like himself but with shorter hair, it being cropped in a military style for a change. His clothes were different too instead of his flowing, showy outfits he was wearing a tight fitted military uniform. The black of the outfit excinuated his eyes.
"You look nice." I say
"One. How long has megan been like this?" Ailign asks ignoring me.
"Megan has had a change in mood for the duration of the day." One said
"I see." He said "What would help you?" He asks me.
A tear falls from my eyes. I didn't expect that question from ailign.
"A friend" I answer
"Starting tomorrow You'll attend the facility. There will be plenty of human females to socialize with there." He said
I thought then and there to ask ailign if I could go to roge and Amy's house but I would wait. I didn't for a combination of reasons: I wanted to meet Amy first, and I wanted to hold onto the hope that he would say yes.
I feel the drug start to take effect then and I had never before been so thankful for its quick release. The nails in my stomach lessen and my head starts to feel less numb.
"What are we doing today?" I ask ailign
"I thought we go for a swim on my side of the house and then I'd attend therapy session with you" ailign said
A swimming pool? The bath in my intended bedroom was practically a swimming pool. I couldn't imagine what the designated pool would be like in this place.
"Ok" I say and I slowly get up. "One will you help me get ready?" I ask
"Of course." She says and we make our way slowly to my bedroom, Ailign staying still with his head bowed toward the couch the whole time. I look back to check if he was still standing there. I don't know why I was curious, but he seemed, almost sad as well.
"Quickly now" one says and ushers me into the room. My swimsuit was surprising modest for there otherwise risky fashion sense. I look myself up and down in the mirror, admiring the silky texture and cut. A nock came at the door then.
"Are you ready?" Ailigns voice came in through the door.
"Coming" I say as I rush towards the door. This would be the first activity I've done sense coming to this strange planet. I was slightly looking forward to it.
The walk down to the pool was grulingly silent. The awkward air so thick you could practically see it. There was no sound except for the thud of our feet. We come up to the touch pad for ailigns side of the house, the door slinking open with a thud. While walking down the halway I stop for a moment at an open door, noticing a stream of monitors and a raised platform with a chair on it in the center of the room. Ailign looks back at me, his pace coming to a stop as he waits for me. I tear my gaze from the area and walk up to him, expecting him to walk on again.
"Would you like a tour of my side of the house?" He asks.
"Maybe another day but I'm a bit cold in nothing but this swimsuit" I say
"You look nice by the way" He says as he gently moves a strand of my hair. I reflexively slap his hand away, then feel regret.
"Sorry" I say and look down.
"It's fine" He responds and moves to start walking again. To my utter surprise ailign starts talking.
"This house was built around a hundred years ago. It was built in an older style, and recently updated for your stay. There's twenty rooms, eight living rooms, and four kitchens with the master suite and kitchen on my side of the house. Then there's amenities areas...." Align goes on about the house. I wasn't really listening to him but having something other then silence was a relief. There was too much silense in this house. "You like houses right?" I suddenly hears ailign ask.
"I do" I answer. "I like the different kinds of architecture and how different people make different spaces feel so different."
He nods to me "You'll get to see several different kinds of architecture in the future." He says.
I didnt know if that made me happy or not.
He continues on in his little explanation of different styles his people had until we reach the pool at last. I dip my feet into the warm water, it calming me instantly. I could hear ailign stripping off his clothes behind me but I tried to drown out the sound by focusing on the water instead. Ailign jumped right in head first, splashing me with water, my hand goes up to protect my face. "Hey watch it" I fuss.
"Sorry" He says. Ailigns eyes coming out of the water with his now wet jet black hair reminded me of a celpy. It was eerily beautiful. I shivered.
"If your cold get in the water. The pool is heated." Ailign says
"I'm perfectly capable of feeling the water myself" I say to him, watching him swim around.
"Your choice" He says. Ow so he was giving me choices now was he. I jump into the warm waters finally deciding it was better then being cold, even if it meant I had to swim with him. He swims around me, making laps out of it.
"Is it uncommon for your people to have sex with strangers" He suddenly asks me.
Wow buddy.
"Uh it's not really uncommon at all actually. We even have dating sites for people who just wanna jump in the sheets with someone." I say
"I see" He simply says "our people are the opposite as you know we only mate once."
"What do you do if your mate dies" I ask
"Many take their own lives. We live for centuries so when a life partner like that goes its usually devastating. Although many find new purpose."
"Centuries!?" I ask bewildered.
"Yes, you should live longer now as well. I'm not sure how long though." He says
"Why's that?" I ask.
"I shared my life force with you, and pumped you full of drugs on the trip to our world. If I had to guess I'd say you'd live to two or three hundred years. I can always give you more drugs if you start to age." He says while still swimming laps around me.
"Is that why your people live so long?" I ask genuinely curious.
"Partly, we are also simply born with a long life span." He says
"So you'll live longer then me." I say
"Yes" he says, his face contoring into a frown.
Good. The prick could live without a mate forever for all I cared. I float in the water trying to drown out the sound of his splashing. My finger tips tingling at the sensation of the water slowly splashing ahainst them. What I'd give to be outside, under the stars in this pool. I look out of the glass walls, imagining what it'd be like at night.
"Can I come here without you one day?" I ask
He pauses for a moment thinking over my request. I noticed he did that a lot, think his words out before he spoke.
"Yes but only while I'm home." He finally says. "Tell your request to one when you want to come here." I hum my response and it went quite again. The swim went on peacefully for a few long moments before ailign put on some soft music. It was a slow tune, with an upbeat melody. He was swimming laps from one end of the pool to the next, I watched him quietly from my little spot on the edge, clinging onto the side to keep myself up. The waters wrapped under him and his figure bobbed up and down, his arms stretching out to push the water behind him. I noticed lean abbs poke out of the water from time to time. The same abbs I saw when he violated me.
"I'm ready to go in now" I suddenly cut in.
He slowed his pace and peered over at me, stopping completly on the other side of the pool.
"Very well then." He answers. I watch him swim his way over to the edge, the water slicked off his cut body. He was completely ripped, and not to mention huge. He notice my gaze lingering on his body, and concerned look coming from his face.
"I read in roges report that your more comfortable with him in human form. Would you prefer me to do the same?" He asks.
I'd prefer him with a shirt on but I just nod my head.
"It's nice when everyone's not towering over you" I say
"Then I'll change now give me a moment." He says while drying his hair with a towel.
His body shifts and shrinks, his skin flipping over to a pale cream instead of Bluewater. He blinks slowly and his eyes change to human eyes, with blue irises. His face changed, his features softening, the angle of his lips changing. He was breath takingly handsome. I get out of the water and stand near him. After he was done he was a good foot taller then me instead of the looming three to four feet.
"Better?" He asks and reaches his arms to the side, showing off his new form.
"Much" I say.