Unfated // Loki

Warmth

Pov - Hers

Every day I wake up in a place that is not my own, I sometimes don't even recognize my own voice. It's like I'm trapped in the space between two mirrors, both casting different reflections yet neither seems familiar to me. I don't like to think about it too much but sometimes I step out of my body and work on auto and it's hard for me to step back in. I think I end up in a sort of ditch, it feels dark and cold...empty, and the more I think the longer the ladder becomes to go back up.

I'm in that place now, empty and alone, it's strange that this place feels familiar and almost comforting. And the fact that I feel this way saddens me but doesn't scar me. I think I've been in this hole so long that light is what scares me now.  

"Aurora, we're leaving soon, if you're not ready you'll have to walk."

I don't want to go.

"Alright, I'll be ready soon."

I really don't want to go.

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Pov - His

"LOKI! You can not keep behaving like this, it is not fair to your family."

I don't want to be here.

"It was one thing messing with your siblings, but this is considered a betrayal, not just to me but for our people."

Betrayal he says. I thought it better to just listen, it's not like they would believe what I say. They can call it love but at the end of the day, I know what they see me as. I hear it in their words, the tone they use when talking about me, I see it when they praise Thor and only acknowledge me when yelling at my faults. I feel it daily when I see him, a constant reminder that I was and can never be enough or...worthy.

"LOKI, Are you even listening, you spoiled child."

Spoiled, the idea is laughable. "Oh dear, I do apologize, I thought you would be proud," I smirked, I just couldn't help myself.

"Unbelievable, you are a disgrace to our family and this can not continue."

I stare blankly at him, it doesn't pain me anymore, his words, I guess you can't cut deeper on wounds. My brother walks in at this moment and I prepare myself for his empty words.

"Father please, you misunderstand him," he says innocently, always the hero.

"My boy, do not defend him, his actions are his alone, no one forced him to do anything."

Yeah maybe not, but one has little care when ridiculed into nothing and thrown into a corner and left for dead. Alright, this is ridiculous though, I should probably intervene.

"Do not act as if you care for me brother, I have done no wrong!" probably not my wisest choice of words, too late now though, let's just see how it plays out. "I have done well if anything, I brought justice and our world is better for it. And what did you do, you watched!"

"Watch your words Loki, Do you not understand the pain you have caused." Wow, the audacity of my father. Pain he says, THOUSANDS MORE WERE ALREADY IN PAIN.

"Honestly... This is ridiculous"

"Think about what you have done"

"Okay..uh..replaying the events in my mind... yes you are right father, I am disgusted, honestly the act was heinous." Both of them looked frustrted at my blatant sarcasm, I can't help but feel frustrated at their sheer lack of self-awareness. I AM DISGUSTED THAT THEY WERE APART OF IT, honestly, I do not know why they are angry! I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO DID ANYTHING!!... I couldn't say that though.