let's call this a trial run book.. a free trial.
i love writing, the imagination, and creativity. with that being said, this is something new for me.. writing a book and letting people read it. i have no idea what i'm doing but the first step is to...
It's just a few days until the New Year and I'm leaving Miami to go back home for a little to spend time with those I love.
Outside of my window, sunlight was peaking in.. giving me a stretch of her glory and she gazes upon my tattooed arm. I turn over and mumble to myself "I'm already up, let's just stay this way." I then smile and stretch myself.
Today I will be meeting up with myself before this trip so that I can set my intentions and really get some alone time before all of the wonderful chaos happens tomorrow. Bre and D had already left before Christmas so it's been me by my lonesome just enjoying my time and I couldn't complain.
Getting up, I sluggishly went into the bathroom to begin my day, listening to a song I wrote awhile back that has been resonating with me as of now. I haven't been able to name it though
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It's 8am and the sun is at it's brightest as Lani sits with the wind with her cup of green tea on the balcony. "Control!" Lanis eyes light up with joy with a hint of resistance coming through. "I'll name is Control, since I have my life under contro- actually no." Lani frowns having a hard time coming up with a title name for this song. She wants to have the name before she leaves tomorrow so it's something that isn't in her mind as she spending time with loved ones.
Lani has been slowly getting back into her groove of making music since the start of November and this is one of the songs she wants to put out before the year ends overall, with a project hitting freshly at the start of the New Year. She quite big with her photography on the media but would like to see her creative ways be showcased vocally and lyrically.
This project will withhold some if not most of her understandings through her time in Miami. Then she would like to take it back more to the times that molded her being with future projects. She's knows this'll be long term because why can't it? Photography will always be her love at first sight but hidden underneath it kind of became her gateway to build more with her audience since they love her so much for her authenticity, courage and wisdom already.
As Lani finishes her cup of tea, she walks barefoot down the side stairs to the grass below her and begins to sing her song and dance like the wind with eyes closed smiling. In this moment, she's thinking of the times she's enjoyed, all the divine intervention she's been given, the places in her mind, body and soul that she's surrendered to, the rebuilding she had to do with the people that were brought into her life and even by herself, when she thought she knew every answer, the times she wasn't patient, and most importantly when she gave grace to the knowing of never being able to really "find oneself" because you'll forever be lost, changing, accepting new things about yourself, learning, teaching, giving, loving.
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Lani steps closer to the ocean, letting the rocks dance on her soles. She almost quiets everything.. beginning to sing again. "Wonderin', wanderin', wonderin'." She sings it again adding onto to as the wind blows around her giving her enough air to breath in and sing out a "It left me wonderin', wanderin, wonderin." She finally rests her whole being.
"Found me wonderin', wanderin' wonderin."
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