Mackenzie's POV
It has been months since the accident.
I know it didn't just destroy me, it destroyed a lot of things. One of them was me and Kai.
Kahit naman hindi namin sabihin, kahit hindi namin pag-usapan, alam kong nasira na kami.
It was one misunderstanding leading to another. We were both walking on eggshells around each other. We both wanted to help, to not be an inconvenience, we both ended up sacrificing our own happiness para lang maibigay ang akala naming kailangan ng isa't isa, but I guess we did it wrong.
Wala nang nag-uusap, wala nang nagtatawanan, wala nang errands' day, wala na kami.
When I saw us slowly falling apart, that was my wake up call to try to fix us, but I don't think it's working. I think we're beyond repair now. Pero kahit na, I still do my best. I still work my ass off to show Kai that I'm making an effort.
Just like right now, me and Oli decided to take up the long overdue cooking class.
Kahit na sobrang busy ako sa studies ko, pinilit kong masingit yung cooking class because I wanted to finally cook for her.
"Aray!" Sabi ko at napatalon sa hapdi ng pagkakapaso ko sa kawali.
"Katangahan na naman niya," pang-aasar sa akin ni Oli pero hindi ko siya pinansin at tinuloy lang ang pakikinig sa tinuturo sa amin.
I maybe book smart but I'm no kitchen smart.
"Dahan-dahan lang kasi, Mackenzie. Para kang may hinahabol na deadline," sabi ni Oli and I sighed.
I do.
"Hindi ko makuha yung lasa ng sauce, Oli! Naiinis na ako!" I frustratedly said as I put my hands up for defeat and he laughed at me and my big bowl of sauce para sa favorite pasta ni Kai.
I even requested for this, para mayroon na akong practice once I try to cook this for her, seems like I'm going to need a lot of fucking practice.
I've made some improvements naman na. Hindi na ganon kapangit ang lasa or kasunog ang dishes ko, but I really do get hurt in the kitchen. Konting hotdog, nahihiwa ko sarili ko. Konting pag-fry ng hotdog, napapaso ako. This is so hard. I don't know how Kai does it.
"Hinga," sabi niya sa akin as he motioned me to inhale but I just rolled my eyes as I sighed again.
"I finished the sauce for us. Maybe we'll practice na lang next time on your own time. Para no pressure," sabi niya at naluluha akong tumango sa kanya.
"No, don't cry. Come on. Be patient with yourself. Allow yourself to be a beginner," sabi niya while rubbing my back.
"Beginner? It has been months, Oli." nagpupunas ng luha kong sabi and he laughed.
"Edi hindi beginner. Bobo na lang," sabi niya at kumuha naman ako ng sandok at inihampas sa mukha niya.
"By the way, nagyayaya sila Eli. Dinner daw tayo later. Birthday niya," sabi ni Oli and I nodded immediately.
Dati I would've doubted or checked with Kai first, pero ngayon, hindi na. What's the point? She won't even respond to my texts. She'll read them once nakahiga na siya sa kama, busog sa dinner nila ng kung sinong dance group kasama niya.
"Kenzie, what's wrong? Are you done with the sauce?" Tanong sa akin ni Milan, our instructor for this class.
"Hindi ko po kaya," sabi ko at nagsimula na namang mamuo ang mga luha ko na ikinataranta niya.
"Oh, no. No! Don't cry, please. Oli," nagpapanic niyang sabi at bigla akong inabutan ng basahan.
Naguguluhan kaming nagtinginan na tatlo at napakamot naman siya ng ulo.
