Just one bite Astarion x reader

You're wonderful, you deserve something real

The Astarion brainrot is real, and I feel like writing. My recovery is going well, thank you for the support yesterday. Here is today's chapter! It's a bit shorter than usual because I'm super tired.

Night passed, neither of us slept. I had left Astarion to his own devices, I felt him pace around all night. Waiting to me to burst into his room, to yell at him. The fear, the anxiety at the moment not coming, the uncertainty at what this would bring, and slight happiness that I didn't want him just for his body, this had been drowned out by everything else, but I saw it. A feeling we both had shared since that night.

I walked to his door, knocking, even though I could have let myself in.

"Astarion?"

"Go on, say it, say you hate me for deceiving you, for using you." His voice and aura filled with self hatred.

"I don't hate you, you were just trying to survive. I don't blame you." My voice was soft, comforting, I wanted to show it in my aura, wrapping it around him, but I was scared it would scare him, making our situation worse.

"That's why you should hate me, you're wonderful, you deserve something real. I've spent 200 years charming people, 200 years of using my body to lure pretty things back to him, you made me see I never stopped thinking like his slave. You deserve the world." He sighed, exhausted after the sleepless night.

"I care about you, that's enough for me."

"Really?" As he said this I moved to embrace him, he stiffened then relaxed, wondering where to put his hands, before hugging me back.

"Honestly I have no idea what we're doing, or what comes next." He spoke, he was excited, so was I.

"Neither do I, but we can learn together, what matters it I love you."

"I love you too, darling." We stood there embracing each other in a loving silence. The others were begining to awaken, commotion began as they realized Astarion was missing.

"We should join them before they crusade the nearest village looking for you." I mumbled face buried in his neck. He chuckled, fingers lost in my hair.

"I suppose we should." We parted, but our hands quickly rejoined. His aura showing he wanted the contact, a stabilizer to his wild mind. We walked out of the soul house, all eyes on us.

"So that's where he went." Shadowheart said. Everyone's eyes looked us up and down, searching for hickeys and other various markers of a good night.

"Get your minds out of the gutters." I said, their faces flushed in embarrassment. "Two adults can share a house without sex you know."

"They can just enjoy each other's company." Astarion spoke slowly, thumb stroking the had he gripped.