Vent art, poetry, and just... vent

I can't feel anything

Massive TW for self harm suicide derealization

Slipping away
Forever
Don't remind me please
Don't look at me please
These words
Dripping
I'm normal but this world is not
I'm frozen but this world is not

"It's okay, you'll get better"
Funny words to hear from someone
Melting into their environment
It's ok
It's okay
It's okay
It's okay
Is it?
Liar
Crying out my own blood
Screaming like greed

I'd stab myself
And I will
Don't stop me
I'm a liar
Liar I am

Slipping away
Never
Déjà vu
Deja vu
Again and again
Flip the page for a dead girl
Flip again and see what you revive
Daja vu
Daja vu
Trust in nobody
Kill again
Kill yourself again and again
A pain

It's a knot
Just cry instead
I'm sorry for the way my pain
Just slithers into nothing
Carry on
Carry on
Like a dying mother sobbing a melody

This school desk
Confining
Rip out my intestines and kill myself
Like you could understand
I'm not speaking about
A gun
Another gun
7 more
All these noises
All these little lies
All these fake things
Pretty almost
Unusual, almost

Slipped away
Losing myself
Dying
Dynamite lighting up the sky
To die
To die
To fucking die
To be gone
To die
To cry again and again
We are noticing this
We are gone
This ocean is deep
But I can't swim
I don't know how
I don't even know
Just....
Just
I don't know, please don't worry

Slipped away
Losing love
It's not the love we give
It's not the wars we fight
It's not the peace we make
I'm not myself
Narcissism is not the problem
Entitlement is not the problem
Everything is
The existence of each human
Flipping a page
Flipping a notebook
Do drugs
Throw up
Buy a car
It doesn't matter in the grand scheme

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It's not me, it's her. I can't cry anymore, I'm falling asleep
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Don't think, just die. This isn't good, but I can tell you that I don't feel real
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Writing poetry, dancing. Count down tik tok. I'm not alive. I'm not here
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Abuse. A funny word, such a.... Accusation. I don't know what to believe anymore
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I'm not gonna live alone anymore
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I'm not going to see colors anymore