Long time No see

Her pov

Everyone was going to the dining hall for lunch, I noticed he was not there maybe he was at the end of the dining hall.
Finally, I can take a breath of relief and sit on the couch away from people.
"Are you ok San, I noticed you're not looking fine after seeing that fine man?" Maddie asked worriedly
"I'm fine Mads, it's just I wanted to tell you something but we'll talk about this later & you go ahead, I'll be coming after a while," I said taking a sigh
"Ok but you're telling me everything afterwards and yes come fast, Auntie must be worrying about you " she ordered me
I nodded at her and she left the room, I was just sitting there thinking about why he was there and how will I handle all this, suddenly I heard footsteps and I looked up and Ahaan was standing above me close to the couch where I'm sitting
"Didn't you say hello to me, bambina?" he said in his deep voice and suddenly I felt the anger towards him which I didn't know I was hiding deep inside me
Angrily I stood up and with so much anger I shoved him off & went towards the door but before I opened the door Ahaan pulled me back by my wrists, because of sudden force I landed on his chest and before I pushed him, he put his one hand on my both wrists tieing them behind my back with his one hand and other one is holding my waist tightly to make sure that I don't move. This position is sending tingles to my whole body.
"Wha..tt a..re you do..ing Ahaan !" I stuttered
"You didn't change, you're still that sweet bambina?" He subtly smiled, I was shocked at what he was even talking about. & I'm not like my younger self, I've changed.
" Don't call me bambina, My name is Sanjana " I confidently said to him, he laughed and said
"You must be Sanjana for everyone but for me, you'll always be my bambina".

Why he is using "my" word, I'm not his. I don't know why his words affected me so much, I stayed quiet and tried to ignore him but his breath was fanning on my face making my mind go hazy. Nobody said anything, he was looking straight into my eyes, his hands were caressing my waist and I didn't know why I liked this feeling, his hands all over me making me go all hot and bothered.

"Did you meet grandma?" He asked in his deep, serious voice.
I was surprised, why  he was asking if I met Grandma or not
"Why are you asking, isn't grandma still in Rajasthan?" I asked because everyone told me she is in Rajasthan
"Wow Anna, sweet, innocent, naive Anna, obviously you know nothing about grandma, because you were busy with your studies, and job right? " he said in his sarcastic yet serious tone as if mocking me

I looked confused into his eyes but his eyes were so deep and captivating that it made my voice stammer.
"Why are you saying that? " I didn't like the tone he was talking in, it felt like something was not right
He released me from his hold & again held my hands and took me to the puja room where the frames of gods & goddesses were placed & also the frames of family members who were gone forever.
"Why did you take me here ?" I asked looking at him

He held my chin & moved towards the frame that was hanging there, I looked at the frame with mala on it, and immediately I was in tears. No this cannot be true, she can't go away like this. She can't leave me like this.
"No no this is not true, this is not true " I was on my knees crying my heart out
"It is true, she died 6 years ago but you were so busy with your studies, your life, your job, you didn't even ask about her. How can you be so selfish? She loved you more than me and when she died you ran away abroad and never tried to know about her & asked where she was. Wow, Anna how selfish you can be ?" He said his eyes all red from the anger & sadness towards me

"No no, please don't say like that, I asked about her, but everyone told me she is in Rajasthan. I even tried to call her but no one picked up the call. Why didn't you tell me about her death? "
I asked tears still streaming down my face

He tsk and angrily said " Are you fucking serious?
You are telling me why didn't I tell you when nobody told you about her death? But do you remember Anna, you never tried to talk to me, even when everyone was talking to me via video call, you in all these 6 years, never tried to talk to me and now you are accusing me, Wow "

At that moment I was sobbing, he was right, it's all my fault, I was so busy with my own life, I didn't even think of grandma, I was so deep in my sorrows, I forgot about her. I hate myself, he is right I'm so selfish, always think about myself, and never thought about what Ahaan was going through, how everyone in the family was going through.
"Grandma, I miss you !" I sobbed
He looked at me for a bit & left the puja room, leaving me alone with tears & grandma.
I mourned there for a bit, I am feeling so many emotions right now sad, angry, hate, and pain towards me & my family too who hid & lied about Grandma's death.