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Answering Comments

Last night, I read all your comments, and I loved how my lovely readers came forward to share their opinions and thoughts, expressing everything—even your frustration—toward the female lead. I'm truly happy that, whether good or bad, I get to hear from you all.

Some of you blame the female lead, calling her weak and saying she has no self-respect, while others have lashed out at the male lead. I completely understand. Some of you even stopped reading midway because you didn't like the characters, and that's okay too. I know I've made so many mistakes—with names, character development, and so much more. But as I've said before, this is my first story, and these are rookie mistakes that I've learned from. As for the name changes, I wrote this book with long gaps in between, and even I forgot the names at times, which led to me messing things up. I'm truly sorry for that.

Now, about the male lead's development—he is a confused character. He doesn't know how to deal with his emotions, constantly torn between his mind and his heart, which leads him to make the worst decisions. He pushes and pulls—one moment wanting to hold on, the next forcing himself to let go. His confusion makes him impulsive, and though he later regrets his actions, he refuses to admit he was wrong. He acts out of anger, fear, and a desperate need to control what he doesn't understand.

Deep down, it's not just her choices he's struggling with—it's his own emotions. The fact that, despite everything, she still has power over him terrifies him. He doesn't know whether he should hate her or forgive her, or if he even wants to. And in his uncertainty, he makes the worst choices—the kind that hurt not just himself but her as well.

Now, about the female lead—I wrote her from a place of my own thoughts and experiences. Growing up, I was always independent, handling everything on my own. I've always been the dominant one, the I can do everything on my own, I don't need a man type. And I'm still doing everything by myself. But when I started writing this book, I wanted to experience something different through my female lead.

Somewhere in my life, I wanted to be like Sanjana—someone who, despite her weaknesses, had someone who made decisions for her. I know that in the story, she suffers because of him and still chooses him. Because her heart is reckless. No matter how much pain he has caused, no matter how many times she tells herself to let go, she can't. She sees the war in his eyes, the conflict in his soul, and instead of running, she stays. Maybe that makes her foolish, maybe even weak—but to her, it doesn't feel that way. It feels like love. A love that is raw, painful, consuming. A love that isn't easy, but is still hers.

She tells herself she deserves better. That she should walk away. But the truth? Her heart doesn't want better. It wants him. Even if it hurts. Even if it breaks her. Because despite everything, despite the suffering, there is a part of her that believes in him, that hopes for the man she knows he can be.

I know that in real life, issues like men's cruelty, women's freedom, inequality, equality, and the misunderstood definition of feminism are constant topics of discussion. But this world—this story—is fictional. And in fiction, no matter how toxic the male lead may be, he is still the one who would burn the world for her love.

That being said, I love all of you, and I will never stop you from expressing your thoughts. The comment section is yours, and you can share your opinions as much as you want. I will listen. I know I've made many mistakes, but the fact that so many of you still support me means the world to me. I just felt the need to answer and be a little more interactive with you all—to share my side of the story too.