Long time No see

Her pov

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How strangely this universe works. One moment, it feels like you're high on life, and the next moment, just one thought or one word from a person can ruin everything just like that. The same thing is happening to me. I started to think my life was going sane, but I was wrong. I think it's getting worse. I don't know what I should feel after Ahaan's confession. Should I feel happy that he also had feelings for me, or should I feel sad that he didn't know how to express himself? Or should I feel angry that he rejected me just because he was thinking of his image at that time?

I used to either feel happy about things or sad about things, but never angry. I feel frustrated or anxious or stressed or everything, but I don't overpower the feeling of anger. But now, the emotions I am feeling right now are anger. The urge to just break things down was damn strong, like we see on TV serials. I was thinking of how to control myself when I heard a voice.

"Ana, please say something," he said, his face worried, waiting for my reaction. Did he understand how I used to feel when he didn't show emotions, now that I'm doing the same?

I bitterly chuckled and said, "How easy for you to confess and then expect me to give you sympathy because of your sad story." Bitterness filled my words, and I wanted him to hear it. He looked sad and confused, maybe not expecting me to react like that. But now I had things to say, so I continued.

"Wow, Ahaan. What did you say? You had an image to keep up with? But tell me one thing: at what cost did you have to put up with your image? Oh, sorry, how would you know, because you never knew the cost, as I had to pay for it, right?"

I looked into his eyes. He was about to say something, but I stopped him.

"Now don't tell me you know what I've gone through! Because no, you don't know anything, Ahaan. How hard my days were? You started feeling for me when you saw me in a lilac dress just because I was looking pretty and now also you're married to me because I lost weight and started looking pretty, right? " 

At which he shakes his head furiously but further he could say anything I again stopped him

"But do you know since when I started liking you, Ahaan? No, how would you know, since you never really cared, Ahaan. I started liking you since the day I saw you. Even when you were rude towards me, making faces when I was around, I didn't like it, but I still wanted to be around you. Just to be around you, I even forgot my self-respect. I was so into you that I loved everything about you: your smile, your laugh, even your silence. And I was in love with you before I even knew the feeling of love or the meaning of love. And here you are, talking about how young and immature you were. But Ahaan, do you remember me? I was so small, even younger than you and also immature, but still, I never thought of hurting you, Ahaan."

I was literally at the stage of sobbing now, because as I'm saying these words, I'm feeling like I'm reliving those miserable years. Some people were right when they said that love hurts. When I was young and had a new crush on Ahaan, I used to feel like love was all rainbows and unicorns. But thanks to Ahaan, he taught me how fucking bad this thing hurts.

I saw Ahaan's eyes get a little teary as if he was holding himself back. By the way, I admire men for this, how they hold their emotions. If I didn't know him, I wouldn't tell that he was crying. And here I am, always crying like a fool. Maybe that's why it's easy for my bullies to bully me. I wish I could be that strong.

"I'm so sorry, Ana. I didn't know that you had to go through this," his voice cracking.

I chuckled as I tasted the salty tears flowing from my eyes and continued.

"Oh, Ahaan, how would you know? You must have been busy saving your image of the hot bad boy, right?" I sarcastically laughed.

He looked down, ashamed, but I still had a lot to say, so I kept going.

"But do you know, Ahaan, while you were saving your image, what I was going through? Let me tell you. First, when I used to come with Shiv and you, your girl fans used to get jealous and start bullying me. First, it was with words like 'fat' and 'ugly,' yeah, those words only, but with more variations. But was it my fault, Ahaan? I was so small at that time that I didn't even know the meaning of some words. Still, I heard and didn't say anything. Then I made one mistake: falling in love with you. You know, I was so dumb that I ignored everything just to stay near you, Ahaan. But I didn't know that I had to pay the price for it, Ahaan." I sobbed, and then my whole past started flashing in front of me.

The scary look of Michael and Veronica started flashing in front of my eyes. I shivered as everything felt so real, as if they were here. I shivered more, and that's when I faintly heard his voice.

"What's happening, Ana?" Ahaan was shouting, coming to hold me, but I was so scared that I felt Michael was coming towards me. But I also heard Ahaan shouting for me, and I shouted.

"Please, Ahaan, save me!" I was sobbing like hell. The only thing I could see were my past images.

"Save you from whom, Ana? Say something!" I heard him. My eyes were getting blurry, but I knew he was there, talking to me. I felt like I was in an abyss, unable to function anymore. I felt paralyzed, and the fear in me was overpowering my ability to speak or do anything. I hiccuped and tried speaking to him to tell him about things.

"Ahaan, h-he will kill me. Ahaan, please... stop him. I don't want to be locked in that dark room anymore. I'm scared, Ahaan." I sobbed as I felt two arms around me.

"A-Ahaan, my body is hurting. He k-kicked me in my stomach. I can't m-move anymore. Please, someone open the d-door. It h-hurts, my ch-cheeks hurt. He sl-slapped me so many times. They a..re laughing at me Ahaan . H..how we..weak I'm . I ca-can't take it anymore. I can't tell an-anyone because he s-said he will h-hurt me more. I w-want to be free from t-this m-misery. He s-said I'm ug-ugly. My b-body is ugly, he was r-right, Ahaan. I'm so u-ugly, I'm so f-fat. I have b-bruises everywhere. Nobody lo-loves me, Ahaan, not even you."

At this stage, my body was shaking furiously. I was panicking so much, my nerves were on alert. Michael's words were ringing in my ears, his beatings, his ugly voice making my head spin. His friends laughing at me . They are laughing at my tears . They are telling me how weak I'm . The tears were not stopping. At this moment, I felt so weak that I couldn't even lift a finger.

I was about to lose consciousness, and then I felt something drop on my cheeks. My tear-filled, blurry eyes looked up and saw Ahaan was crying. This was my last vision & first time seeing : him crying, tears flowing from his cheeks even if it's blurry . My eyes closed on their own, so tired from everything. I heard words like,

"No, no, Ana, wake up, please baby , wake up." I knew it was him. He was holding me in his protective embrace. Even though I wanted to open my eyes and hug him, my weak body was refusing to move an inch. Everything was hurting, even my mind. And then I just switched off myself. Now, the only thing I see is darkness. The peaceful darkness, but somewhere I know someone is crying for me.

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This chapter is bit emotional but necessary. I hope you guys will enjoy it and please vote for me & I will try to update as fast as I can.🥰