The people who once were the reason for all your happiness can also become the reason your life becomes a hell.
You try to change yourself for their happiness, but it never seems to be enough.
No matter what you do, it seems all it results in is making them angrier and more disappointed in you.
I don't know what to do anymore, so what is the best way to protect myself from all this? Is it to just numb it all and all the feelings away so that the pain inside me stops?
I don't want to feel like this anymore.
I am so godam* tired, tired from having to deal with all this silently while keeping a smile on my face as if everything is right in this world.
But most of all, I hate myself for feeling this way and for still letting other people's words and actions manipulate the way I think.
Family is one of the worst things in the world, especially for me.
It keeps on stabbing you again and again, even when they know that you're not fine; they simply don't care.
If they tell you that they love you, then why is it that I don't ever actually feel loved?
Why is it that you guys make me want to kill myself the most out of all the people I know?
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