To be your ONLY option (Namkook)

Facing Consequences

2015 (part 3)

The four simple words was powerful enough to destroy Namjoon's entire world, to put his existence in question, to churn his inside into a mesh of emotional threads. Jungkook felt the pain Namjoon was going through, yet he's not the one in his place due to which his devastating state of mind will be unexplainable. Sana and Min-soo got up from the couch and approached Namjoon and sat on either side of the boy trying to hold his hands.

"Leave me alone!" That was all the broken soul could say before detaching his hands from that of his parents and climbed upstairs towards his room taking giant steps.
The middle aged couple was crying their heart out while Jungkook was just petrified in his place. Witnessing his parents' daily arguments and problems impacted him a lot, but this kind of revelation is something beyond his imagination.

"Kook, I know you are close with Joon. Can you please take care of him? We are in no position to face him right now." Min-soo said with joined hands requesting a shocked Jungkook.
"I'm sorry Kook you had to see all these, but he needs someone by his side now. He won't accept us, but you can be there with him." Sana said wiping her tears.

Jungkook was not in a state to respond anything, he just ran towards Namjoon's room and knocked on the closed door, but it opened with a little push as it was not locked from inside. Namjoon was sitting on the floor with tight fists punching on the floor. Jungkook hurried to stop him which he eventually did but his heart broke when his eyes fell on the bleeding knuckles of the elder. He held the injured hand with his own and sat beside Namjoon leaning his head sideway on the elder's shoulder.

"You don't have to talk, cry all you want, but please don't hurt yourself." Jungkook said getting up and then pulling the drawer where the first aid box is kept. He sat down and started cleaning the wounded hand with some medicated swabs and then bandaged it. All this while, Namjoon was just resting his back on the wall with closed eyes.

"I am a terrible son, aren't I?" These were the first words he uttered since the shocking confession of his parents.
"No, you aren't."
"I am, Kook. I didn't even know my mother's pain all these years. I don't care if she has given birth to me or not, all I know is that lady has stayed awake nights after nights whenever I would fall sick, she would prepare snacks for me when I study late night. She has loved me and cared for me with all her heart. And what did I do? I just stayed in a bubble with a very happy family. You know Kook, when I saw your parents fighting, I would feel thankful to have a happily married couple as my parents. Guess I was wrong all along, Kook."

"Joon, I don't know how to console you, but I just want you to know that I'm there for you. You can tell me anything you want, don't keep the pain inside you." Namjoon pulled the boy towards him and wrapped himself around him as if he would never let Jungkook go away from him. Jungkook just rested his head on Namjoon's chest with hands holding his shoulders. They both stayed like that for some time.

A knock on the door gained the attention of the two boys. Sana was standing with a bottle of water. She slowly stepped in and sat opposite to the boys placing the bottle on the floor.
"You must hate me now, Joonie. But I-" she got cut off.
"Mom! How could you say that?"
"Now you know I'm not your real mother, Joon. I won't stop you if you try to get in touch with her."
"You are the only person that I know as my mother. I don't care if we are related by blood or not. I know only one truth that you are my mother and I'm your son. But I failed you, mom! I couldn't see your pain all these years."

"You are the best thing that ever happened to me, Joonie. And don't think I was in pain. I was happy with you, my son. Due to my condition, I allowed your father to have relationship with other women, but still he loved me and respected in a way." Her voice was broken and eyes were teary.