To be your ONLY option (Namkook)

Happy Ending

2021 (part 4)

"Just leave me, hyung! Please, I beg of you!"

Namjoon shoved a piece of folded cloth into the mouth from backside to shut the source of the noise as the shouts were just ruining the fun. The fun to feel the tightness of the 17 years old boy under him. He increased the pace which hurt the boy more exceeding his endurance limit. The entire white bed sheet was stained with blood.

Namjoon's chest was having multiple scratch marks as the boy was trying to save himself by attacking the monster with his sharp nails, but nothing stopped the hovering man. After some time, the boy gave up and his hands and feet movements stopped. The tear stream dried up, entire body having deep teeth marks from where blood was oozing out. After few hours of action, Namjoon pulled out himself from the boy and looked at his face.

"Kookie!"

"Kookie!"

"Kookie!"

A splash of cold water forced him to open his eyes. He was dying inside out of guilt and shame and started sobbing loudly.

"Shh.. I'm here, Joon. I'm here."

Jungkook hugged Namjoon in the sleeping position as the elder was holding tightly onto his torso as if the younger was leaving him and he is trying to convince his loved one otherwise.

"Kill me Kookie, but don't leave me, please!"

He kept pleading and crying worrying his boyfriend turned fiancée to the core. Jungkook couldn't understand what was happening, but he just kept whispering sweet nothings to the man's ears which eventually calmed him down.

They were lying on the bed hugging each other for a very long time until Namjoon's phone started buzzing. Jungkook checked the phone to find some person named Mr. Byun calling.

"Joon, there is some Mr. Byun calling you. It's Saturday today, why your office people calling you?" Jungkook said softly while Namjoon snatched the phone from the former's hold at the mention of the name and cut the call.

"It's nothing, Kookie."
"Joon, you had a nightmare, didn't you? Please tell me what did you in there? You know, you should always talk about such bad dreams else they will keep coming into our mind again and again."
"I cannot tell you, Kookie." Namjoon started sniffling.

"Joon, I can understand it was something horrible. Just tell me, please." Namjoon sat up on the bed resting his back on the headboard and pulled Jungkook to his lap to hug him as close as possible.

"I keep getting a terrible dream, Kookie. I see myself forcing you to sleep with me and using your body ruthlessly. The worst part is that I see the 17 years old version of you which makes me want to skin myself alive."

Jungkook now realised why Namjoon had distanced himself for such a long time. All these years, Jungkook had the conception of satisfying his boyfriend's needs to be priority in their relationship, now the same is getting backfired. His secret confession through his words in the diary has produced a terrible feeling of being the accused person in Namjoon's head.

"This is all my fault, Joon. I kept you in dark, I hid all my pain from you, but I actually caused you more pain in the process." Jungkook burst out into tears holding onto Namjoon's shoulders.
"No Kookie, it was my fault, you just made me feel good about myself by sacrificing your comfort."

Like that, they kept crying and wiping each other's tears. This is the first time they ever discussed on this sensitive topic instead of running away from their pain. Now they actually faced the monster, which was neither Namjoon's sexual urge nor Jungkook's obsession to make his man happy, it was communication gap.