Eventually we finally fucking got to Martins house, I was ecstatic ! I desperately needed him to be alive and well. He would definitely help my mental health a lot. The way I felt about him wasn't just some weird 'I'm a teenager and I need a boyfriend because I'm horny and need something to brag about' kind of thing, I genuinely loved him.
No-one gets why I love him, because at first glance, he seems like an asshole, and sometimes he can be, but that's just the surface.
He can be rude to people working low level jobs, but that's because he doesn't want to admit how much he respects them. I know how kind he really is, he just struggles to show his true emotions to anyone that isn't super close to him. He isn't mean, or an asshole, just guarded and afraid, and has trust issues, but I'm super sneaky and know how to squeeze the information out of him, and when he does, I just want to hug him so tightly that he pops! A Lot of people say I hug too tightly hehe...maybe that's why I avoid hugging people so much, I'm fine with insulting people, what's the saying? "Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me", it's bullshit, but I live by those words, anyway, that's why I avoid hugging people, I'm too strong I guess...
Not strong enough to fight zombies though...
Not strong enough to hold Martin's heart together though...
I'm not good enough...
I will never be good enough...
Imnotgoodenoughimnotgoodenoughimnotgoodenoughimnotgoodenough
Martin is too good for me, why did he ever love me? Did he ever love me? Why?
No, I can't think that, I must help him. I will save him from the zombies and his traumas...
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Missing Heart
PertualanganIt's a zombie apocalypse. The 3 siblings and a few other people they picked up have to try to survive in the wasteland with famine, lack of medicine, and of course, zombies. Why did this happen? Who caused this apocalypse to happen? Pretty soon they...
