Early Bird (Erkenci Kus)(Part 4)

7. Not if I can help it

"Leyla?" Leyla looks over her shoulder at Emre coming out of his office. "Can you take a look quickly?"

"Sure." She moves over to his side and he flips open the file. "Hm," she reads and nods. "Okay, these prices were all updated after lunch today."

She looks up and he is already looking at her. I already knew that.

"Did I hear hungry tummies?!"

They look away from each other to Osman coming in with 3 large pizza boxes and 1 small one stacked on top of each other with a grin.

"Oh my God you're a saint!" Guliz gushes.

Emre clenches his jaw and his fist tightens on the file as Leyla steps past him to go over to Osman.

"I was just saying 'If I had a pizza right now'," Davit runs over too.

"Osman?" Leyla smiles and hugs him.

"Honey. How are you?"

Emre shakes his head, watching Osman's intrusion of the office.

"I kept your favorite pizza on the side for you," Osman says and opens the small box.

"Aw," Leyla gives him a light peck. Everyone else was already diving into the pizzas, grabbing what they were in the mood for. He'd gotten with meats, one with fruits and such and one with vegetables. She usually had one with chilli pepper and spinach leaves. "Thank you."

"Hello Osman," Deren greets him as he hands Leyla a slice and a napkin.

"Oh hello," he grins at her, "how are you?"

"Well thank you. And thank you very much for this too."

"My pleasure."

"Miss Deren?"

Deren turns and Davit gives her a slice. "What is it? There's no meat right?" Davit shakes his head and she takes a bite with a smile.

"What is wrong with you savages?" JJ says, watching them attack the food. "Have you people never seen pizza?!"

"JJ," Osman taps him on the shoulder and then stuffs a slice into his mouth. "Relax, eat."

"Mr Emre, aren't you hungry?" Guliz calls over to Emre and waves her hand. "There's still plenty left."

"No thanks," Emre gives her a thankful smile but declines the offer. "You all enjoy." He looks over at Leyla and Osman taking bites of each other's pizza and then turns to go anywhere else.

**

'I haven't written in a long time...
I don't write for myself anymore.
I used to write what I see, what I feel, what I want to do one day. About my dreams.

I've forgotten myself. Drifted away...

Can chose his path...and since I am no longer on it with him, it's my turn.

I have to wake up from my dream to fulfill my dream.

One philospher once said, "If you aren't brave, you will always be watching life pass you by."

I will be brave. And I will show Can that I can be happy without him.'

Sanem looks up from her notebook that night, slowly lowering her pen.

She would always love Can, and she will never give up hope but she needed to focus on herself now.

She's been ignoring her needs and wants and put him first for too long. That it took all of this for her to realize this was what shook her the most.