Forever Yours - A LankyBox Fanfiction Story

Chapter 9 - Regrets (Cynthia's POV)

Cynthia's POV

Throughout my life, I had made some messed-up decisions, but breaking Justin's heart was the worst one. I beat myself up about it every minute and every second of my existence. He haunted my dreams at night. Whenever I went to sleep, I was visited by him. His innocent and handsome face. His beautiful, brown eyes. His ever so hypnotic stare. I could smell the sweet scent of his soft, purple hair. I could hear his deep, raspy, alpha voice, which made me blush every time he addressed me with it. I could hear his helpless cry. See the look on his face when he found out I had been cheating on him. I couldn't take it anymore. Things didn't have to be this complicated.

You see, a few years ago, my life was great. I was a happy-go-lucky girl who was adored and loved by almost everyone I crossed paths with. However, everything went downhill after I met my first ever boyfriend, who happened to be a YouTuber. I'm not gonna mention any names. All I'm going to say is that my heart was broken badly by this YouTuber, and to get back at him, I decided I would go out there and break the hearts of his fellow-YouTubers. Silly, I know, but at that time, I was so broken that I didn't care. I dated YouTubers after YouTubers, only to leave their hearts battered and bleeding at the end. Then, I met Justin. At first, I thought it would be that easy to leave him, just like I did to those other YouTubers before him; but I was wrong. Because when I left him that fateful night, I felt the same pain my first boyfriend caused me when he left. Except this time, I was the first one to leave. I didn't realize how much I actually loved Justin until I walked out of his life. I tried my best to get over him. I pursued my relationship with DJ Cook, who I thought would be the one for me, but my heart never stopped calling Justin's name. DJ was the last YouTuber I dated, and I ended our relationship by telling him I was seeing someone else. But the truth was, I was longing for Justin. Longing for his love. His touch. His gentle and yet passionate kisses. I missed the way he would whisper sweet nothings into my ears while running his fingers through my long hair. I missed him. I wanted him back in my life.

A few hours later, I was getting out of my car and making my way to his front door. Hesitantly, I gave it a light knock, my heart pounding violently inside my chest. Then, I heard light footsteps coming from within. They got closer and closer, until the door opened slightly, making me take a few steps back to look at the person who opened it. And that person was Justin. I felt my face slowly heating up as my eyes met his. This man's heart was once mine, until I messed it all up. His face was as handsome and innocent as I remembered it. He looked rather pale, though, like he was sick with something, but he still looked adorable.

"Hi, Justin," I managed to nervously say. I expected him to turn away and slam the door in my face. I wouldn't blame him if he did. After what I'd done to him, he had every right to resent me. But, he didn't resent me, nor did he slam the door on me. Instead, he looked up at me, and he smiled.

"Cynthia!" he said, shaking my hand, his hand felt warm in mine: "You alright? I'll go get DJ for you. One sec." He started walking back in, about to call DJ, but I stopped him.

"No," I said, "I'm not here for DJ. I... I'm here for you, Justin."

"Cynthia, if you're here to apologize for everything that happened between us, there's no need. You're forgiven." I couldn't believe my ears. Justin was being so nice to me despite everything.

After a very long silence, I finally plucked up the courage to say what I had been planning on saying before making my way to his place.

"Justin, I... I... I love you. So much. I had no idea how much you meant to me until I left. I was so stupid for walking out on you the way I did. I just... I just want things to be the way they used to be. I want to start over and make it work between us. Please, Justin. Please, give me another chance to make it right."

Justin didn't say anything for a while. He seemed to be choosing his words carefully. He started to bite his lips, an indication that he was deep in thought. Then, he finally found his voice.

"Look, Cynthia. I'm so proud of you for acknowledging the mistake you've made and I can tell you've changed for the better, but I've moved on since then, and so should you. Besides, I'm in love with someone else. I'm so sorry."

My heart dropped. I had lost it. I'd lost my chance of winning him back. I just had to accept it.

"I understand, Justin," I said, "thank you for hearing me out."

"You're welcome, Cynthia. Thank you for stopping by. Right, I gotta go lie down. I'm under the weather at the moment. Adam and DJ have been doing what they can to break my fever, and, I feel like it's coming back now. See you later! Mind how you go!"

With that, Justin waved goodbye to me. I watched him as he turned away, quietly closing the door behind him. With tears streaming down my face, I gave his house one last glance, then I was back in my car, driving home.

(Yo! What's up, lovely readers! Hope y'all enjoyed this chapter. Sorry it took me a long time to update. I was running out of ideas LOL! But I'm back at it now. See y'all! Stick around for the next chapter!)