I Need You

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we were all siting at the table of a little restaurant 

I talked with my mom, she was feeling well now, so she decided to come after dad and Jack 

so now I am just with Lewis and Jack 

as we talked I saw that Lewis was not paying attention on everything Charles was saying 

at one point I needed to go to the bathroom to fix my everything and when I got back I saw that they were not in the restaurant anymore, so I walked outside to look after them 

I find them outside next to my car and they were fighting, not physical but verbaly, so I tried to get closer to hear why was they arguing 

"do you even care about her?" I hear Lewis yelled 

"I do" Charles said putting his hand in the hair 

"do you love her?" 

he doesn't said anything. it was a silence, a silence who said a lot more than any words can say

I don't wanna be a pick me, I now that 'this' is not happening for a lot of time 

but there was almost 3 months, and I know that I feel something for him, I don't know if it's love, but it really is something related to love 

and I guess he doesn't feel the same thing for me

"I get it, you don't love her, but why did you need to fuck that girl? what the fuck mate??"

he what?

there was not a lot of words, but enough for me to cut my heart in pieces 

after that proposition I haven't heard anything they said 

Lewis has very angry and I knew by the way he clench his fist that he wanted to punch Charles

and even that he maybe deserve that, I can't let Lewis again to be stained with blood on his hands again just for me 

so I walked there as nothing happened, with no emotion on my face and the only thing I could say was "get in the car"

I was ready to start the car when Charles who was sitting in the back of the car asking "how long have you been there?" 

"enough" it was a strange feeling, my heart was crying but my eyes don't

Lewis almost gasped, he put his hand on mine 

this man would do anything for me, and not just because I am Toto Wolff's daughter 

but the exact same things I thought about Charles, and it seemed that it was just bullshit 

my eyes was filled with tears and they seen that 

Lewis even asked me if I want him to drive, but I can't let Charles to see that I was affected 

maybe for him we was just friends who often kiss and fuck 

but I am not surprised because it seems that he fucks everyone 

I was so stupid to think that he like me 

"don't be surprised if I get you out of the race now" Lewis said looking at Charles

god he doesn't think when he speaks??

he at least know how dangerous it could be if he does that? not for Charles, but a lot more for him if Charles tells anyone that he said it 

I hope he is not talking serious about that 

"look I am sorry ok?"  Charles said trying to reach my eyes in the mirror

I can't look him in the eyes right know 

"you gave Maya away for a PR manager" Lewis yelled at him 

I can't belive what I just heard

a fucking PR manager 

my eyes were filled with tears again, and this time there was so much tears that they all comes down on my face 

I am crying and they can't stop fighting not even know when they see how bad it comes for me the word they said 

was he fucking his PR manager? I was that easy to replaced?

as I was thinking and crying they were still arguing  

"can you shut the fuck up at least?" I yelled at both of them

Lewis doesn't deserve to be yelled at, but if he doesn't stop talking, Charles won't stop either 

for the rest of the drive they haven't told any word 

my eyes continue to tear, I can not stop it, Lewis tried to calm me down, but it was very hard 

now I know the reason why Lewis hated Charles so much from a week now 

was Charles even planing to told me that?

we were not together , so he doesn't have why to told me, actually he didn't cheat. but it's still hurts as hell, I really belived that he loved me 

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after we got at the hotel, I run as fast as I could to my dorm 

I can not spend another second seeing Charles and knowing what he did 

after I got in my room I started crying very hard, until I heard a knock 

I opened the door with my mascara all over under my eyes, my face was red from crying, and my eyes the same 

it was Lewis, I let him entered knowing that he is the only person that can save me now

not really save me, but he can make escape from the pain 

it's not the first time he sees me like that, he helped me with the Lance thing from almost day one when he first hurt me 

Lewis is my safe zone

we stayed inn my bed, he hugged me and played with my hair as I was crying my eyes out

he calmed me down, again

"I was a fool" 

"Maya don't say that, you had no way of knowing that he don't want anything serious" 

"Lewis, who's PR manager is she?"

this question was over and over in my mind. if it was Charles PR manager I think that is not the first time, and if it's really his, then I can expect that maybe there will be something between them, and that means that I can't go to the races anymore, not if this means that I will se them together very often.