I Need You

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when Lance saw that I was against him, kept silent and became invisible

"good, then Maya, Charles, Lance go get the blankets and me, Carlos, Mick and Lando go get the food" said Max

I think you're kidding me

"you can take food from the restaurant sponsored by Red Bull and we can take blankets from the Ferrari garage" said Charles

we moved away from the others and were left with only Charles and Lance

we got to Ferrari and from there Charles sent Lance to the strategists office and i went to Carlos's driver's room and he went to his

it's pitch black and I can barely find the closet handle

I manage to find 2 blankets and I try to look for others because other drivers will come

I've been dizzy since tonight, so I'm going to the bed to sit on it and catch my breath

when I sit down I realize that I am in someone's lap

"Maya" he said

it's Charles

I got scared and jumped off the bed

I think I just saw my heart leaving my body

"for God's sake Charles!" I said

now he laughs and motions for me to sit next to him on the bed

I sit down and lean my head against the wall behind me

"Are you ok?" he asked me

"Yes, why wouldn't I be?" I asked trying to hide a sigh

"Lance?" He said

I now rested my head on his shoulder, glad that he said it so that I wouldn't have to tell him to look like a pick me

"it's horrible that whatever I do he is always in my life," I said

Charles leans his head over mine and says "if you want we can leave"

then someone enters the room and destroys a painting on the desk

"Carlos won't be too happy," I said

the person now approaches us and tries to figure out who we are

"aha" says the person

"so you're really sleeping with each other behind my back" he said very angry coming towards us

it's Lance

I can't have a single break

"did you find the blanket?" Charles asked getting out of bed

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when we went to the place where we planned to stay, I saw next to the drivers I came with and their girlfriends

I put the blankets on the floor, the food and made friends with Isa and Carmen

after eating i lay down looking at the sky

it is the full moon

my favorite

everyone is laughing and talking next to me and I'm trying not to fall asleep

Lance was always looking at me trying to signal to me to go I don't know where

not even death will come into play

I turned around resting my elbows on the fluffy blanket I found in Carlos' room

without realizing it I'm looking exactly at Charles who is standing in front of me

"take a picture if you like what you see" said Charles smiling

if it wasn't almost dark, you could clearly see how red my face is

"you have no proof" I said smiling

now Charles doesn't smile anymore, he looks at me carefully, but he doesn't smile

"do you want to go away from here with me?" He asked, looking intently into my eyes

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Charles and I were walking in his car on the small streets of Jeddah for almost half an hour

we laughed, talked about all possible things and thanked him for the flowers

now we stopped at a gas station

I bought some white wine from there, which we were going to drink together

Charles took the car somewhere on a street that seemed to be forgotten by the world, no one was passing there anymore so we decided to park the car on the side of the street and stay there

after a lot of wine we both got out of the car, now we sit between a wall and the car to get some air

with the alcohol I drank this night, I can do anything

"you really don't remember most of the night when you slept at my place?" Charles asked me

"most of it is not clear" I said resting my back against the cold wall

"Maya, I know you remember the kiss, but I don't know why you don't want to talk about it" said Charles now much more stressed

oh fuck, i forgot about that kiss

That's right

I pretended to forget about it

"Charles I-" I tried to explain, but Charles intervened

"do you regret it?" Charles asked me

I widened my eyes and put my hands on his face

"no..no..I just.." I said stammering

"it was the most beautiful thing of that night" I said looking into his eyes hoping he would understand me

"mon amour I think about that moment every day of my life," he told me

mon amour? hundreds of butterflies just started flying in my body

"it hurts that I hurt you and it hurts that I can't do anything about it to make you forgive me" he said looking at the ground

I still have my hands on both sides of his face so I lift his head and look into his eyes

He is honest

there are no more hundreds of butterflies, there are thousands and they urge me to do what I hope will be good

I stand on tiptoe and kiss him

it didn't take long and he kissed me too

it's passionate.. it's perfect

one of his hands is on my waist and the other under my ear

he waited a long time for this.. I can see it.. I can feel it

for the rest of the evening we stayed there and talked and laughed (among other kisses and touches)

when it was too late, we went back to the hotel

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