I Need You

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"I don't know if it's a good idea to tell you" 

"come on Lewis" 

I really wanted to know who the girl was 

"it was George's PR manager" 

George's???

I thought she like me 

there was some people who knows what was between me and Charles, and she was one of them 

"you don't have to worry for her, this is her last race as a PR manager"

"what do you mean?"

"from the day I heard of what happened between Charles and her, I prepared the acts, tomorrow I go with them at Zack, I am not gonna give up until she is out of formula 1 in every way posible"

he doesn't need to do this

but I don't complain at all

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"there is no way you are not coming to qualification" at this point Mick was throwing all of my clothes everywhere in the room 

"you don't need to do all this mess, because I'm not coming"

"aham" he doesn't even payed attention at what I just said

"you actually don't need to search for an outfit because I am not coming Mick" I said again as I was getting my clothes from the every corner of the room

he sat next to me on the bed "you can't run from him. maybe not today, but tomorrow he is going to want to talk to you about what happened, and you can't really hide"

"I am not ready to have a conversation with him" I said as I rest my head on his shoulder 

"I know Maya, but I am going to be there with you, and in case that something happen we can come back to the hotel" 

he put his hand over mine 

"and beside that, you can't leave me alone with Toto and Lewis"

poor little guy 

I decided to go, I didn't want to leave Mick alone just because I am not feeling well

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I stayed in the Mercedes hospitality all day, I didn't want to see Charles 

the most of the time I walked with Jack around 

Lewis did a very good a job, tomorrow he is starting from pole 

George is going to start from p8, he said that the car has not feeling very well, it has some issue, and we hope that the problem can be solved until tomorrow 

Charles did very good too.. he's starting from P3

after the quali I went with Jack at Williams, I knew that Lily will be there 

and I really needed to talk with her

some of the Williams engineers greeted us in a very cute way, I know some of them because they worked at Mercedes, so they know me and Jack 

I found Lily very quickly and took her in a safe place where I knew no one could hear us while Jack was watching tv with Alex in his driver room 

I explained Lily what happened (last night when I found out)

"I can't believe that he was fucking with some other woman" Lily shouted 

I put my hand on her mouth "I would appreciate if everyone wouldn't know this, thank you" I said in a whisper 

"well he deserved it, you need to do it" she said right after I took my hand off her mouth 

maybe he deserved it, but I can't spend a rumor in the paddock just to hurt him 

it's not that simple, he is not gonna be just hurt, this can ruin his image and his entire career 

"I can't do this" 

"come on Maya, you need to do something about it, he brakes you heart" 

"but it's not fair to do it"

"so it was fair when he was in bed with her when you were thinking at him"

now I can see her point but I will not do it 

"I still don't want to do it" 

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as I was walking back to Mercedes to bring for Jack his hoodie hoodie I saw in the corner of my eye 2 people hiding I guess, between 2 Ferrari buildings 

it was not very hard for me to saw that it was Charles with George's PR manager 

I closed my eyes trying to find out if it was a dream or not, and when I opened my eyes back, they were still there, and Charles was looking right at me 

in that moment I panicked 

so I started moving a lot faster when I saw that he walked away from her and started running towards me 

I hopped that I have time to arrive at Mercedes where I know that it will be very hard for him to get in because of Lewis who was probably at the entrance 

but I guess not

I felt his hand grabbing mine and stopped me from moving 

"Maya can we talk please?" 

"Charles I really can't in this moment" 

"it's not what it seems" 

in this moment I don't give a damn shit about what they were doing there, I want to know just a one thing 

"were you even planning to tell me about it?"

he stopped looked me in the eyes 

his face was now looking in the ground and his hand was loosing it power 

another response was missing, and this time I know again what does it say 

my eyes was filled with tears again 

and again the tears was falling on my face one by one 

I couldn't even see who was walking by us 

he lifted his eyes and saw me crying again, and it was just his fault again "Maya I-" 

just in that time I felt a hand on my shoulder "excuse us" the guy said and after that he dragged me away from Charles 

we walked fast in the back of a hospitality

I couldn't see his face, but his touch and smell was similar to me 

and the dark green t-shirt...

"Lance?" I asked as we stopped walking