For next month things ran smoothly and Christmas was approaching. Of course Blue had the house decorated, like every other year and it was only the 18th of December.
Friday, 22 December
"Onika" she was on the couch in my office typing on her pc. She stopped typing and looked up. "do you have license?" she didn't have it when applying for the job. "no..." she
looked away embarrassed. "can you drive?" she shook her head no. "why are you asking?" Onika asked, "I needed you to do something which required you driving." I replied,
"you can have lunch and will continue" I told her after checking my phone.
She fetched her lunch from the kitchen and came back, the smell filled my office and I stared at her as she resumed her sit on the couch. "We can share" Onika said as she noticed me, like I'd say no to good food. She opened her lunch as I sat next to her and it was rice, mashed potatoes and beef stew. With one spoon on sight, without a care, I alternated between feeding her and I. She blushed the entire time, for once since we came back from CPT the mood was delightful.
It was 6pm and normally Onika would knock off around 5pm but today I was too busy and needed her help. However, I did mention she could go home and I would have to manage on my own, but she insisted on staying behind. I also asked about her kids and said they were at her
grandparents. I wasn't too worried about Blue as she had her cousin over.
The clock struck 8pm and we were getting ready to leave the office, "how about we get dinner" I told her as I entered the elevator behind her, "that sounds great" a 'no' was what I had anticipated. "What do feel like eating?" I asked while sending a text to Blue letting her know I'll be home a bit late. "Ocean basket" she answered as we entered the car.
We arrived at the restaurant, "stay in or take away?" the waitress asked and I looked at Onika "take away" she replied. The service was pretty fast and we left with the food.
"You can come in" she motioned up her apartment as I parked the car "alright". Once we got in her apartment she took her shoes off while switching on the lights and offered me slippers, which I put on.
"mm...this is good" Onika said as we sat on the couch, while eating and watching TV. I nodded in agreement, she tried to grab a wing on my plate but I held her wrist quickly, "nope" I said as I took the wing with my left hand and took a bite. She laughed as I swatted her hand away.
It was 11:30pm and I was still at Onika's place. I laid back on the couch and had my arm around her shoulder, how did we even get to this position? I stole glances and finally said "can I
kiss you?" she looked at me quickly in surprise "what?" she said as if she didn't hear me. "you heard" I replied and she nodded. I pulled her much closer to me. She smelled like vanilla with a tiny of cocoa butter, I looked into her eyes as to ask again and she nodded. I slowly captured her lips with mine and I felt home, her lips were so soft and I stopped the kiss before going I could go any further.
She offered me a top and shorts, asked me to stay the night and said it was too late for me to drive. I agreed and let Blue know I'll be staying over at a friend's place.
Too tired to debate with Onika who sleeps where, I pulled her softly onto the bed and got in behind her. "Good night" I whispered, "night" she said while yawning. Without thinking too much about tonight's events I held her closely and fell asleep.
The next morning, I woke up with Onika still sleeping while cuddled up to me, I checked my phone and it was just after 9am. I must had been really tired, I saw some texts and
missed calls. I was interested in Blue's text;
Blue- morning ma...
Me- morning love, hope you had a good night. I'll be back today.
Onika shifted in her sleep, she opened her eyes slowly and found me staring at her. She looked heavenly with her messy hair and pouted lips. "morning" that sure woke her up. "oh, morning" she replied. I got out of bed and started putting on clothes, "I should get going" she nodded while avoiding my eyes and got out of bed to put her gown on.
"Thanks for letting me stay the night" her face was unreadable, I didn't want to bring up the kiss with how she
was acting right now. "well goodbye then" I said and she waved.
Got home to find Blue and her cousin sleeping in their rooms, looks like they had a long night and didn't mind at all.
I tried calling Onika later at night and she ignored my calls, she wouldn't even respond to my texts. I didn't regret the kiss, just hoped she didn't feel forced to kiss me.
24th December, Friday
It was around 6pm when I got a text from Onika, I had just gotten back from dropping Blue and her cousin at one of my relative's place, she would be spending Christmas and new year with them.
Onika- hi
I wanted to ignore her but decided against it.
Me- hi
Onika- sorry about the other day
Me- okay
Onika- Beyonce
Incoming call...Onika
Onika: can you let me explain?
Me: I'm not doing this over the phone, where are you?
Onika: at my place
Me: I'll be there
I dropped the call.
I was already in leggings and sweater, so I just put on gym shoes and left the house.
"Spending Christmas alone?" I asked Onika like I wasn't spending it alone also. We were on her couch and when I got here, she looked like she had been crying. "yes..." she replied without any emotion. I wanted to ask why but thought not to. "how about you spend it with me?" this is not what I was here for, I planned on putting an end to whatever this was. "I'd love that" she went to pack some clothes and we left her apartment soon after.
We arrived at my place, although she had been my PA for more than 8 months, she had been at my house once, her reaction was like her first time . "Wow, your house is wonderful" she continued to look around. Too tired to give her a tour it was 11pm after all, "you can see the rest tomorrow" she nodded.
I was in bed and Onika was taking a shower, we acted like domestic couple and we were far from that. After a couple of minutes; she got out the bathroom and her face was unreadable. "Where do I sleep?" she asked, "on the bed of course" I searched for her eyes as she stood
next to the bed awkwardly, "Or, the guestroom".
She got in the bed, "explain" I told her once she was settled in. "I'm tired to talk" was her reply. "okay, good
night" I made myself comfortable, "night".
25th December, Christmas Day
Onika was still sleeping when I woke up, I went to do my morning routine and get started on breakfast. I sent my family and friends texts wishing them a merry Christmas.
Onika got down just in time, breakfast was ready "morning" she greeted, "good morning and merry Christmas" she smiled and said "merry Christmas". Breakfast was good and the silence was comfortable apart from the giant elephant in the room.
"Surprise me" I replied to a question about what I wanted to eat for Christmas lunch. We had yet to talk the entire morning as we went back to bed after breakfast and watched some boring shows until she decided to cook. I tried to help as she cooked, but she looked like she got everything
under control.
Lunch was amazing, chef's kiss and Onika was amazing too. We were in the TV room, laying on the couch, she had her head on my lap as I gently stroked her scalp. I felt like she was trying avoid the 'talk', it irritated me to say the least because she knew exactly what she was doing and I wanted to call her out on it. In the spirit of Christmas, I let it slide and would end whatever this was tomorrow.
Sunday, 26th December
"You did this with your other PA's?" again with this question, it was around 8pm and we were in bed. "Why don't you just say whatever's on your mind" I replied with irritation in my voice. "I didn't ask for this okay!" she yelled and I did not expect that. "Beyonce, I'm not gay" of course,
I was now mad and mostly at myself. "alright then, I'll drop you off tomorrow" there was not much to say, I got out of bed and went to sleep down stairs.
First thing Monday morning I dropped off Onika, things were back to square one. She tried to explain in the car but I stopped her, what good would it make.
