A lifetime of hello's and too many goodbyes.

Part 7

Being strong.

Reese called and asked how's Cece doing, I told him that Cece was going to start his chemotherapy, until the cancer specialist found out that Cece's cancer isn't stage one, but stage IV. Reese said he's sorry to hear that, and for me to take as much time as I need to take care of my family, I told him that Cece said if the survival rate is around six months, or maybe a little more, he doesn't want to go through that, and if it's God's will for him to live longer to be with his family then so be it.

All he's thinking about is Manny and how long he has with him, we explained to Manny what's going on he doesn't really know how bad it is, but we have Dyland and EJ along with Liz helping me with Manny. He started school and is doing well, Reese said good and if there's anything he can do let him know, and tell Cece he's praying for all of us, he said there is something he can do, he'll send a car to take Manny to school and pick him up, that should help me so I can be with Cece. I told him thanks, and when he lets me know the drivers name, I can tell the school, right now Dyland and EJ are picking him up.

Reese said he'll get on that after he hangs up with me, I told him thanks, he said he's more than just my boss, we're friends and it's no problem helping us and tell Cece he'll come and see him soon. I told him I will, I hung up and went upstairs, Cece is asleep the meds do that to him, I walked out of the room, my bae is going to die.

I went downstairs, Liz asked me how's Cece doing, I told her he's sleeping, she broke down and cried, she's been with Cece longer than I have, she said she has to cry now, she doesn't want him to see her cry, he's like a son to her, we both are. She said God forbid, but if Cece passes will she have to leave here, I told her of course not, she's like family, I and Manny will need her, she hugged me and said thanks. Now let her make Cece some lunch, she asked me am I hungry, I told her not really, she told me I have to eat too, so that I can take care of Cece I can't get sick.

I told her I'll try I'm going to walk around the grounds, if Cece wakes up just call me, she said I need to do something other than sit around here, I told her I'm scared to, I have to be close to Cece, she asked me am I afraid he'll die if I leave here. I just ran out of the door, I ran as far as I could, and I screamed why, why lord did this have to happen, we're gay, but I always thought we were still your children too, we love each other, and we took in a very special boy, this is what happens to gay people for trying to love no matter what.

I felt a hand on my shoulder it's Dyland, he said don't feel that way, I was there for him when he lost everyone, and I told him don't blame God, it's just the way life is and when Gods ready for us we have to go.

I told him but I'm not ready for Cece to leave us, and Manny needs him, Dyland said he can't answer why things happen, I just cried, he hugged me, and said he'll be right here for all of us.

I told him thanks; he said EJ went to pick Manny up something told him I needed him, I told him I hate him seeing me like this, he said I'm human it's okay to show my feelings.

I asked him will he and EJ stay for dinner, most times when they drop Manny off bae's asleep, he said they'll stay, we went into the house, Liz said Cece isn't in our room, we ran upstairs and checked all upstairs, bae was no where to be found, Dyland said he'll check out back again, I checked the front, bae is in his car, I got in with him and asked where's he going he said to pick up Manny.

Babe don't you remember EJ and Dyland pick him up, he said they shouldn't have to he's the baby's father, I told him they don't mind doing it, he knows how they feel about Manny, now come in the house with me, Liz has his lunch ready, we went into the house, I wonder if the meds have him feeling this way, I'll have to talk to the doctor about that.

Cece said he wants to sit on the terrace, he's tired of being in that bed, bae sleeps most of the day so he can be up when Manny gets home, I felt like crying, but I couldn't. Dyland came in and asked where I found Cece, I told him I'll tell him later. I took Cece outside and he sat down he said it's nice out today it's not too hot, Milo ran up and jumped in Cece's lap, he said he's such a good pup, he asked where's Manny, bae I told you he's on his way home from school, he said but Dyland is here where's Manny, I told him EJ went to get him he's fine.

Dyland looked at me, I told Cece that they're staying for dinner, Cece said good it's nice for all of us to be together, Manny came out, I said hey dude how was school he said fine and walked over to Cece and gave him a hug, Cece asked what he did in school today, while they were talking I pulled the guys to the side and told them I think it's the meds that have Cece acting the way he is, Dyland said they'll keep an eye on him if I want to get in a quick nap, I told him I can wait, he said he knows I haven't been sleeping Liz told him that.

She came out and told Manny he has to come in and change out of his uniform, Cece told him they'll play a game later, he said okay daddy, he went into the house, I just watched Cece, he just said he wants to fuck, he looked at me, I'm not sure if it's the meds talking or bae is just horny, Dyland and EJ looked at me, little brother told me to see about my husband, they went into the house.

Babe what did you say, he said he wants to fuck or some head, I haven't been taking care of him at least not in that way, I took him to the garage apartment and gave him oral sex, bae fucked me in the mouth, and when he was about to cum, I pulled away and jacked his dick he shot a full load, he asked me did I want some top, I told him I'm good.

James don't do that, please treat me as you once did before we found out about me having cancer, he said okay, so give him some top, I told him to pull that dick out, and later he can give me the dick up my ass, I gave him some head and bae tried to pull out when he was about to cum. I wouldn't let him and he came in my mouth, I told him as long as I'm able I will do my duties as a husband.

We got cleaned up and went into the house, later we had dinner with our brother's and after dinner we played a video game with Manny, and I read to him before he went to bed, Dyland and EJ were downstairs with James, I tried to get them to take James out someplace, bae didn't want to go. I went back to Manny's room and just watched him sleeping, I love my son and my husband, God please if it's your will let me get through this, if not I repent right now of all of my sins if you take me, I'm not ready to go but I have to go if you want me.

James came into the room and said don't give up they need me, I told him I need them too, but it's not up to me, he said sometimes he wants to hate God, I told him don't ever say that, in our house there is a God, repeat that, bae just looked at me, I slapped him and said in our house there is a good God, bae repeated my words, and I held him as he cried in my arms, I needed him to cry.