A lifetime of hello's and too many goodbyes.

Part 11

Not another day.

Days went by, and Cece hasn't awakened, I asked the doctor what's going on, why won't he wake up, he said he put Cece into a coma, I asked him why he would do that. He told me that Cece isn't in any pain, I asked him what happen that he needed to do that, he was just in pain and now this. When will he come out of the coma?

The doctor said sometimes the pain is too much, they noticed his blood pressure has gone up, they gave him meds to bring it down, but his pressure went down to low, so they gave him meds to bring it up, he had to make a decision to either let Cece have a stroke or deal with going through a coma. I said he should've let me make that decision, he said he has it in writing from Cece to do what he thinks is best, he said Cece's kidneys are failing as well as the rest of his organs.

The doctor said one more thing, he also has a no resuscitation order from Cece, meaning not to do anything, I told him I know what it means. Is he telling me that Cece is going to die, he said he's afraid he's already gone, I told him no, he's breathing, I told Cece to wake up he can hear me, the doctor said the machines are keeping him going this long. The doctor told me he thought I knew that he has it in writing to keep him on the machines for a week, after that do what's needed, so I should get my family and let them see him and say our goodbyes.

I told him I knew nothing about his wishes, I screamed no he can't leave us, Liz ran into the room and held me, she said talk to Cece, I told her what was said, she told me it's in God's hands now. I told her to call Dyland, and tell him to bring Manny home, tell him what's going on. She said OKAY and left the room, the doctor told me he'll be downstairs we have one more day left, I just looked at him as he walked out of the room.

Damn you Cece, you always have to do everything on your own, I'm your husband I should've been told what you had planned, you once asked me am I upset with you, right now I am, I love you so much, babe you once told me I can't do everything on my own, but yet you did this own your own.

Now I have to gather our friends and family to say goodbye to you, I kissed his head and just held his hand, Liz came back and said Dyland is on his way, he said EJ is picking Manny up from school, he'll call Mr. Reese too, I told her thanks sit with us, Liz started praying.

I said what's the use in praying, God already took him away from us, that's just his body being kept by a machine, now I have to tell our son that his daddy is gone, it's only been a short time since we had Manny with us. Liz said and it made Cece so happy to be a father, he got everything he wanted in life, a wonderful husband and a son, he always wanted children.

Mr. James you too made bossman so happy, he could light up a room when he talked about you, I myself wasn't so sure you were the one, but you proved me wrong, and made my bossman the happiest man in this ole world, and I thank you for that, my baby is gone. His home is with the Lord now, we only had him here to make us happy, all of that is just borrowed him for a short time, his true home is with God. He called him home, something you didn't know Mr. James and that's Mr. Cecil gave his life to the lord a few days after he found out he was sick, he asked me to pray with him, I told him he'll be in a better place. 

Boss James said his place should've been here with him and Manny, I told him they had him and now God needs him more, he said he will never understand that. How could a God take away a child's father, and let that child be in so much pain and hurt, God himself knows what Manny has been through. I looked up and said forgive him lord he's hurting right now, someday he'll understand.

Liz do you really understand that, she said she does, and someday I will to, I just have to think of the good times we had with Cece, and smile that we had him, just think if I hadn't met Cece, would Manny be here, would I had known my mother think about all he's given me, and Manny that's why she understands.