Fallen angel

49. Myers-Present

A/N:For those who don't know the girls' books (except for Dona) are out now

Twisted desire(used to be hate you, love you)-Estella and Teo

Broken Angel-Stella and Dorian

Arranged love(not out yet and might change the title)-Dontella and Kirill

Maroon Angel-Athos and Niko(It might take sone time to upload the next part)

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As i was exploring Estella's new house, i discovered an empty room.

I still can't believe she'll marry Teo. That's why the fucker was in such a good mood lately.I still feel bad for Estella because i know how she perceived this situation. She thinks that he only wants to own her but the fucker is in love with her since he layed his eye on her

When i didn't know the feeling it used to make me vomit a bit.

Now i can't judge. Fuck, but thats what i do best.

New Yorks view from the empty room is breathtaking. The best thing about the city is this view for me. Especially during nighttime. The city comes to life with the lights and the city never dies, even during nighttime.

But i always preferred the villages more. When i lived in my country, i used to live in a village where i knew every person there. I loved my night walks, the soccer matches with my friends, the pranks we played on our teachers... Those were the times where i was the happiest i've ever been.

But one summer when i was fifteen, we kind of "accidentally" set a storage room on fire because the owner kept there dogs and let them die and rot.

He was a sick person who got joy from hurting innocent animals. Estella, as her nickname, trouble, snuck in the storage room and saw the dogs.

If you know Estella, she loves animals more than humans.

She took a copy of the key and on nighttime, we went there, freed the dogs and set fire to the building.

But since we were troublemakers, some people who hated us filmed us and i spent my whole summer in Juvie with my friends.

I was supposed to stay for a year but thanks to my dad, we stayed only three months and that was erased from the system.

My mum still thinks that the reception was gone from the village, that's why i didn't video call.

All i know is, if she finds out... Mamma Mia

I chuckle at the memory of the time i was happier than ever. When i was healed from my daddy issues and was a happy child, even though my hands were drenched in blood.

It's cloudy for the first time after summer ended. Many people get negative energy from cloudy days but i never feel more alive.

The empty room, the silence makes it so much better but there's something missing. Music.

I open my phone and pick a song, then leave it on the floor. Music floods the whole space as Once upon a December from Anastasia starts playing and my head sinks into my positive childhood memories. They are the only thing that protect me from losing my mind.

I am afraid that sooner or later i'll have my psychotic breakdown and i won't be able to stop it. I don't want to be a monster. But i am.

I am a monster.

I am broken. A broken thing that's hanging on life only because of the people she's going to leave behind.

That's why i always hated the concept of falling in love. Because i would hurt more people if i'm gone.