Fallen angel

1.Madden-3 years ago(Edited)

   " L'appel du vide- the unexplainable desire to jump  when on the edge of a cliff"
Meddle about-Chase Atlantic
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I have bad memories from this day. This day, 4 years ago, they kidnapped me and my cousin and I killed them.

Brutally!

And I don't feel guilty. At all!

They deserved it and i also had a little fun. But Tavi.. she was my only concern. The kid was tough but she could handle only so much

Tonight was supposed to be important. Athos was going to introduce her boyfriend to her family. I bet it will turn into a bloodbath especially with uncle Michael's "excitement" to met him.

Excitement to beat the shit out of him.

I'm definitely looking forward to it! At least there will be something fun tonight.

The wind howls, and our footsteps click in my head.

The snow crunching under their shoes, soothing my head. Too bad this peace would be over as soon as i stepped inside St.Killians

Everyone would look at me like a goddamn alien and i hated it

I couldn't even escape tonight, as i was required to be there.

People's noise makes me feel suffocated, like i can't breathe.

"I can't wait to see Athos' boyfriend" my mom says with her bright smile that my sister shares with her.

"Lets hope we survive the night" my father says sighing

He always complains that we can never have a decent holiday. Well, we aren't normal people.

That's one of the benefits for staying away, for me. Nobody can disturb my peace. I can lock myself inside a room and listen.

My heartbeats

My thought

The weather outside

The birds chirping,

We arrive at St.Killians and go inside.

So many fucking people

Their sounds mess up my head as i try to remain calm. In and out. In and out, i do the breathing exercises but they don't do anything

Tavi comes running with her fake sword and pirate costume and hugs me tightly.Problem solved
"What's up pirate princess?"

"Planing on stealing the next ship. No help is needed. I can do it myself" she says with that smile that makes me remember that i have a heart.

I love my cousin but our age difference makes her slip away from me. I'll always be there for her when she needs me the most. I'm the one who'll always need her.

Tavi is the only person that can make me feel. I always knew i wasn't like other people.

When i was little my father took me to a doctor to see what was wrong with me.

The doctor diagnosed me with a antisocial personality disorder which i know is a softer way of saying i am a sociopath. I suppress it cause i know how the people would react to it but the voices just get to much sometimes

Thats why i'm close to Octavia. She is the only person that can make the voices in my head quieter , making me feel the closest i've ever felt to peace. with a person

Jett comes running to Tavi and takes her to play hide and seek. I am a little too old for that and Tavi doesn't insist that i play.

Still, my whole life is a hide and seek game.

Not tonight, i guess

My father pats my shoulder and leads the way with my mom to  the grownups.

At least the music isn't loud. When it's too loud, the voices in my head are even louder, making me fucking insane.

Aunt Rika looks tense as they wait for Athos, uncle Will and Uncle Damon look like they're about to buster in laugh at the sight of uncle Michael's expression.

Laughters, mumbling.. it's way too much. But i'll resist

Mom and aunt Emory are smiling as Athos enters with her new boyfriend ,Nikolas Meadow. She is smiling and her boyfriend is holding her by the waist.  Uncle Michael gives him a death stare and so do my uncles who have stop cackling and stare at the guy's soul. Especially uncle Damon.

Mistake Nr 1 when in a room with her father and uncles

I can't help but also feel a bit of overprotectiveness myself too.

But after them someone enters. A girl with long curly black hair in a short short red dress.

She couldn't be older than me. If you asked someone, what was the definition of beautiful, it would be this girl. 

This girl looked like the definition of a dark angel with those black hair.

"Hello!" Athos says with an bright smile" Sorry we're late"
She starts hugging everyone but me.

She only gives me a handshake as she knows that anything else makes me uncomfortable.

She was always understanding. 4 years ago after the events of this night i found the key of the Carfax Room. I found out it was from her thanks to her clues. I found that room with Octavia, two years ago. It was the most fun i'd had in my life

Her boyfriend stretches his hand to uncle Michael and after aunt Rika nudges him he finally takes it
"This is Nikolas. My boyfriend" she says in a tense voice as she introduces him to everyone

"A pleasure to meet you Mrs and Mr Fane."

How much is this going to take?

Uncle Michael throws him a glance that shows his pleasure to meet him and so do my uncles.

"And who is this beautiful girl?" my mom asks with a smile

"This is Myers. My sister." Nicolas answers holding her hand, making her look like a princess

The princess of NYC. His sister.

We had heard about her but never seen her. Now i know why. She's too beautiful for the crowds

"I wanted to take her here tonight. I thought she would have a good time. " Athos says hugging the girl with one arm. She actually seems comfortable with Athos

"Oh yes! You told us that he had a two younger sisters and a brother. The other sister is four right? Aaron can't stop talking about her. Hi!" Aunt Rika says throwing a smile at the girl which the girl returns.

Although she looks kind of awkward.

"Hi!" she says in a soft low voice

That voice. It was an angelic low voice that no human has, causing complete silence in my head and tuning out every unpleasant sound, focusing only on her voice.

The complete silence in my head felt so fucking good.

They never silenced. Even with Tavi, the were quieter but never gone.

They were silent only when i was alone in a room.

I look at the girl who made this happen: Long curly black hair with light cinnamon eyes, well-built body that isn't caused by the gym. That type of body is caused by fighting and i can see some faint bruises on her arm. Fighting. No doubt.

She was tall for her age, maybe 5'7 , her full lips with the colour of cherries and a fair skin complexion with a hint of freckles .Skin as white as snow and it was perfect with the bloody red dress.

She was beautiful. I can say confidently that i've never seen a girl this beautiful and to have this effect on me.

Four years ago, when the kidnapping happened, i was  scheduled with a therapist and i heard her say to my dad that i would probably never be able to show affection to someone someone, except maybe my family. Also, i might have some type of OCD, connected with my condition

Maybe that could change if i found someone to silence my demons?