Panties
1994
Adina's POV
"Ay, dawg. Pass me the light." Marshall asks Rufus meanwhile Bugz is playin' solo on Deshaun's console as I play with Marshall's hair.
Bugz has been pissin' and stressin' me and Marshall the fuck out, yo... he always wants to make subliminal comments about us around Deshaun and the other boys and shit.
I swear to god his ass is like a lil kid...
I am not ready for Deshaun to know about me and Marshall.... I mean.. there ain't even nothin to know!... it ain't like he asked me out or nothin... it's been a damn month and he ain't asked a bitch out not once!... there's those moments where I feel like he's about to come up with somethin' but we always get interrupted.. this is some recurrin' shit. And I'm sick of it honestly.
I mean I don't show that... of course not... I don't wanna be one of those girls.. so I don't bring it up. But it just kinda hurts that we haven't went to that next level yet...maybe he doesn't want to? Maybe all he wants is sex... is that really all he wants?
That's not all I want... I know that for damn sure.. but I can't bring myself to ask any related questions... I'll slip in subliminal hints here and there but his No-Brain-Ass never gets it.
"Yo, I can't find my damn lighter." Rufus pats down his pockets and looks underneath him.
"Look in between the cushions and behind the pillows." Marshall suggests.
"Why don't nobody wanna play me in MK, yo-" Bugz unaware shouting gets cut off.
"Ay, who's panties is these?!" Rufus holds up a pare of light blue panties in between his pointer finger and thumb as he waves it around making everyone have a shocked look on their face.
Bugz looks at us and both me and Marshall look at Bugz.... Im the only fuckin girl here! How the hell am I gonna hide-
"It's Bugz, it's gotta be Bugz!" Marshall blurts out staring at Bugz.
I look at him with a dumbfounded look on my face... is he stupid?! Oh my god!
Marshall shrugs with an unsure expression.
"Why are they...here?" Kuniva asks.
"..Ion know...I- uh..."
"Yall know Bugz... his weird ass." I swallow the thickened spit in my mouth from feelin' so nervous and on edge.
Everyone chuckles.
"Yea, yall know me,.... I take my underwear off in other peoples homes." Bugz gives me a death stare.
Jesus...
"Well go fuckin' put em away, lil nigga." Rufus throws them at Bugz making him juke them.
"Dawg, you can touch em...They yours." Kuniva chuckles.
"Right." Bugz hesitantly picks them up.
I cringe from him touching my used undies.. oh my lord.
"Marshall...a word." He walks out of the living room into another making Marshall immediately follow him cause he knows Bugz is fed up with havin' to lie for us and shit.
I feel bad... but you gotta do what you gotta do..
"Yo, what's up." Deshaun opens the front door.
"Ay, nigga, you won't believe what the fuck just happened." Rufus laughs.
"What?"
I begin to panic unsure if Deshaun would even believe this shit... I feel like he's gon automatically get suspicious... this mothafuckas been knowin me for years.. he's knows me more than anyone else.
"We found Bugz lil boy panties in between the fuckin' cushions." Kuniva chuckles.
"Ew, dawg! Yall betta tell that mothafucka to disinfect my shit."
"For some reason, I knew his lil gay ass wore size 2 briefs." Rufus jokes makin' Kuniva laugh.
And I just try laughin' along wit em so won't nobody suspect nothin'. This shit is really gettin' hard cause we keep slippin' up.
"Yo, why you put ya tiddy whitys in between my cushions you fuckin' dingus?" Deshaun slaps Bugz upside the head after he just came out the room with Marshall.
"I must of took em off in my sleep or somethin'." Bugz shrugs and Marshall and I seem to be the only ones that can hear the slight sarcasm and hostility in his voice.
"Yea, that mothafucka do be sleep walkin', right?"
Marshall remarks.
"Ay, just don't be sleep jerkin' on my fuckin' couch, nigga."
Everyone except Bugz laughs as he rolls his eyes.
Poor baby... I really do feel bad and I wanna speak up and let people know what the fuck is actually goin on but it has me scared as shit so I just keep my mouth shut.
I can't do it. And I'm not goin' to.
No way....I ain't finna tell nobody nothin' that isn't even official... it annoys me that Marshall ain't brought up the shit yet.
And everything is tellin' me that maybe I should tell him it's quits with us... I mean if he hasn't come around with it, that should mean he doesn't wanna do it!... men are simple right?
But I feel like it ain't that easy.. my genuine, nonsexual feelings only grow stronger for him day by day.
