Tondra
1995
Adinas POV
The rest of the entire night I couldn't stop thinkin about all that happened that day...at work..with Marshall...with Angelo...it only sickens me to go back to that job. But I've also got this weird unexplainable feelin in my stomach about Angelo...
Marshall was being such a fuckin asshole last night and Angelo wasn't nothin but mature about it... ok just like how its always fuckin been, Marshall acts like a lil boy and lets his temper blow and Angelo is opposite most of the time...and Marshall is older... I shake my head thinking about my other thoughts that follow up with that one as I try getting ready for work.
Only needing to grab my bag, I do so. Heading out of my dads house to Angelos car.
Im having Angelo pick me up instead now because I just want a small break from Marshall. that's all. this is all far too much for me....and it disgust me that he moved in with his god damn ex. The shit pisses me off to the fullest.
The absolute fullest.
I feel horrible today..., as well as not looking my best since I was up basically all damn night and...I woke up too late and when I took a shower, all the hot water was out for some reason, it wouldn't fuckin get hot. I hadn't washed any of my work clothes, so I had to find something else to wear and I haven't eaten anything. its all bad. im pissed off.
I open the car to Angelos passenger side door before hoping in and closing the door. My back plops onto the seat as I take a deep breath just preparing myself for the day.
"You aight?" Angelo asks but all I do is respond with a nod.
"You sur-"
"Yes, Angelo. Can we please go?" I try not to sound rude... im just in a bad mood..
Angelo says nothing more before reversing out of my dads driveway and makin his way to out work place.
I was a tad bit surprised that Angelo agreed to come and pick my up this morning since I had asked him so last minute. Like almost as soon as I had woken up and showered, I called him. I was in the shower debating the entire time on if I really wanted to be around Marshall right now.
It just bothers me so much that he's staying with Kim... his damn EX. He's never really talked to me about Kim and I've only heard him say bad stuff about her. That's it.
And the way he talks about makes me feel so uneasy....like why does he care so much? He cares enough to go on and on about how much he hates her sometimes.
I don't know, maybe I sound fuckin' dumb but that mothafucka still loves Kim. I'm sure at one point they were doing fine together.
That's why I just want some time away from Marshall. I honestly want time away from everyone. Except Deshaun... I miss Deshaun... I miss when it was just me and Deshaun when we was younger. It was far more simpler.
I don't wanna act like this is the end of the world because it isn't... I've just always felt this way.
It's just now, I genuinely want it back. Before, it was just nice to think about it and all the fun memories.
I'm gonna have to tell my mama abt my dad drinking again real soon...I'm not much better of a person just keeping it away from her it's just that I don't wanna be the one to tell her. I want my dad to.. but I know he probably won't.
Maybe I could help my dad get over it but I've tried that in the past and shit didn't go well at all. He never wanted to face the fact that he was an addict, so he never did, until his life was on the line.
