Turmoil
1995
Adina's POV
On my break, Tondra smoked a cigarette as we sat on A curb together at the back of our work place.
We had taken a brief moment of silence...I mean this is after I had updated her on what's been goin' on with everything...you know, with Mama P, the effect it had on ones close to her and...Marshall... and the slightly altered feelin's I have towards Angelo...
I mean ion think I like him—Of course not...I'm still with Marshall. But I don't know, okay?... I feel so weird about the feeling that I got that one time in the car with him. And then how my brother was goin' on about how Angelo's tryna get at me... Honestly I don't think so—Ion know.
Me and Tondra just kinda sat there. I knew she was in shock cause she didn't even know all of this was goin' on.
Angelo had never came in for work...I was thinkin' maybe he was just runnin super late, couldn't pick me up and probably realized I'd already be at work...so he'd just be on his way now... but he never came... I hope he's alright. I really just shrugged off...I'm sure he's doin aight.
Also...last night—I didn't get any repetitive calls from Marshall like how I used to...maybe he just gave up.. I really need to call him myself. My brother told me I needed to... I mean...I ain't over it but I feel a lil better about the situation... like—I think I wanna talk now.
But I just don't know what I'd say! That's what I'm sayin! What the fuck am I even gonna say??..And I know talkin' to him about this is gonna make me cry...and I don't wanna cry in front of him. That's fuckin' embarrassin.
I've been tryin' not to cry—Even when I'm alone. But sometimes I can't help it.
Ion like whatever stage of this relationship is. I hate it, and I just want it to be over... I miss my Marshall.
As my thoughts ranted, Tondra squealed—Interrupting the silence.
"Girl! I can't believe I forgot to tell you!" She sounded super excited as she got up, pulling up and untucking her shirt.
I looked at her hella confused, wonderin' what the hell she was talkin' about.
The big bright excitement filled smile that beamed across her face automatically made me smile, puttin me somewhat in a better mood.
She turned around with her cigarette still in between her index and middle finger exlaiming 'Look, Look, Look, Look!' as she slightly pulled her pants down just enough for me to see her lower back.
On her dark skin was a big tramp stamp tattoo tatted on her lower back.
My brows raised upwards as I gasped.
She turned her head around, looking at me. "You like it?" Tondra cheesed.
"That is bomb, girl—When the hell did you get it?" I smiled lettin' my finger graze against the tat.
It really is so pretty on her.
"A few days ago. Shit hurt like hell-"
"Adina??" Someone opened the back door peaking their head out to find where I was.
Tondra tried secretively but quickly burnin out the cigarette on the ground.
"Yeah?" My attention was brought to him...
That's Brady, a new Co-Worker.
"Someone is calling for you on the phone...He said his name was Angelo?"
Finally.
I got up quickly before tellin' Tondra that I'd be right back—I knew it wouldn't take too long.
