never again

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minho sat on the ground, while jisung was on his lap, silently crying into his neck.

where did they go wrong?
what happened that they were now in this not so pleasant situation?
what happened to them?

minho continued comforting han, who stopped sobbing, just silent tears were coming from his eyes, but he didn't dare to look up.
he couldn't face minho.
not after he was the reason minho chose not to do something he worked so hard for.

they just sat there, both finding it somehow comforting, until jisung fell asleep in minhos arms, and when Minho noticed that, he gently picked him up and carried him to his room.

he gently laid him down and tugged him in, giving him a kiss on the forehead.
he did, he always did.

he took last sad glance at the boy and left his room, carefully and slowly closing the door, not wanting to wake him up.

minho went back to the living room and noticed a plastic bag on the kitchen counter.

they started fighting right after minho came home, han didn't have the time to eat the dinner minho brought him.

he sighed and put it in the fridge.

he will eat it when he wakes up, he needs to sleep right now.

he went to take a shower and went to his room.
before he closed the door, he looked at the door across from his room.

behind that door was his boyfriend sleeping.

minho sighed and closed his door, falling asleep quickly, since he was exhausted.

jisung, in fact, woke up when minho came out of the shower.
he spend the entire time thinking, feeling guiltier and guiltier than before.

•~•

the next morning, minho woke up and got ready.

he went to his room and took his things, and just as he was about to leave, the door across from his room caught his attention again.

i should check on him...
no, he will be fine.

minho sighed and left his house.

he arrived at the JYPE building, and smiled when he saw hyunjin and felix in the training room.

"hi guys." minho said and the two boys turned around.

"hey!" felix said and hyunjin waved at minho.

"what are you doing here?" minho asked

"well, we thought that you would be bored today, so we arranged a training for all of us, which means we can gossip the entire time." hyunjin smirked and minho smirked back.

they sat on the floor, felix laying down, his head on hyunjins lap, while minho was across from them.

"so, how is han doing?" hyunjin asked.

minho sighed and checked the time.
10:49am
han should have taken his meds about 20 minutes ago.
but he didn't call him yet.
he was worried.
no, he will be okay, he's just probably mad.

"I don't know, we fought a little yesterday."
minho said, still looking at the time.

"what?! why?" felix asked him.
he was with jisung yesterday, and he was completely fine.

"you know how JYP offered me the world tour, right? well, I didn't tell han, because I didn't want him to feel bad or guilty, like I chose not to do it because I have to take care of him, so I thought that the best thing is to keep it a secret. well, he found out somehow, and was really mad that I didn't tell him.
gosh...the things that he said...."

I'm ruining your life! god, I should have just died, why couldn't I just died?! WHY COULDT I DIE?!
minho thought about this sentence ever since it left Hans mouth.

"wait, you're telling me he had no idea?"
felix looked at him, his eyes wide.

"nope." minho sighed.

suddenly, felix started crying.
it caught both of the guys off guard.

"Felix? why are you crying baby?" hyunjin worriedly and panicked staring caressing Felix's back.

"I...I was the reason they fought."
felix quietly said.

"what?" minho looked at him confused.

Felix took a deep breath.
"yesterday, hyunjin was meeting some friends, and I was left home alone. I baked brownies and I got bored, so I called han if I could come over. he agreed and we talked and gossiped. I then brought up the world tour, because I thought that he already knew. I told him about it, and he looked hurt, but I brushed it off. He found out from me, I'm the reason you fought. I'm so sorry." felix started crying, hugging hyunjin with all his force.

minho was sitting there, not knowing what to do or say. he didn't even know felix was at his house yesterday.

after a while, when he arranged his thoughts, he moved closer and hugged Felix.

"no yongbokie, it's not your fault. you had no idea that hannie didn't know. it was an unfortunate coincidence. don't be sorry, it's not your fault."
minho comforted Felix.

after a while, he calmed down, and they started having normal conversations again.
minho was checking the time nervously.

it was almost 14:30pm, and jisung hadn't called him yet. he was panicking inside, but he told himself that he's okay, he's just mad at him.

the two boys noticed that their friend was a little nervous. they looked at each other, before one of them spoke.

"hey, dude, is something wrong? you've been checking your phone almost every few minutes." hyunjin asked

"yeah, it's just.....jisung didn't call me yet."

"should he?" felix asked, confused.

"yeah, he's calling me every time he takes meds, so that I can make sure he's actually taking them, and when he's eating. he didn't call me once.
it's just...he's probably just mad, right?"

the two boys looked at them, worry all over their faces.

"right...?" minho asked, not sure anyone.

"I think you should go home and check on him. yes, he could be just mad and not calling you because of the argument you had, but still....i would make sure he's okay and that he took his meds."

minho nodded and got up.

"tell the staff i wasn't feeling well. I will call you later, bye!" minho said and took his things, leaving the building.

he went home with strange feeling.