Exposing Her Heart

1🖤. Vacation

Zhara

"Mi nah come nowhere with Yu" I said to my best friend

"Why Manda?" She answered knowing the obvious answer

"Yu really wah mi answer you?"
She sighed, "it won't be like that this time"

She promised but I know better than to believe then again I know I won't tell her no like every other time.

So now my broke self is going to Dubai only because my best friend wanted to go to this really nice food place she saw.

Other people wanna go to show off and things but this girl only a go Fi r gut, never see somebody love them belly like she, nuh know how she nuh buss yet I thought to myself and immediately started laughing like a crazy person when my subconscious said that I'm worst.

We talked a bit longer before hanging up

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After packing for this three day vacation I called my friends letting them know I'd meet them at the airport.

"Jah know, a when me ago find a man Fi carry my things them" I said to myself. Know a nuh ugly mi ugly, I pulled all the motherfuckers I wanted but as always the likkle dutty Jamaican dog shit them cyah keep them dick ina them pants, I sighed after I had the thought.

I connected my phone to my Honda, my baby this eno, first car mi buy, will never forget it. I played IDG1f on full volume while singing along.

A wah so doe make my song them gas Yu cause this is a brand new motto, my front too good Fi mi pass up
And I know this game too well mi know just mi legs them you wah spread, you nah get nun so go to hell mi rather lay down n finger myself a win is a win mi a buss my nut cause I'll be damned if I let you fuck
Look Pon me then look Pon Yu, a really must crack Yu sit down a spark up. Yu free Fi carry mi out, gimme money n buy mi stuff that's about it you nah go cuff get it outta Yu mind you nahve a luck, Yu coulda wish Pon all the stars but dah one yah nah fall Fi Yu that's about it we nah go fuck get it outta Yu mind you nahve a luck
Call it weh Yu want IDG1f what you think about me, some say the best things in life free but them nah chat bout my pussy

I practically screamed that part as it is my favorite.

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Knowing I had to let somebody pick my car up from the airport is the only reason I drove this car cause I don't trust nobody else around my other steerings not that I trust them around this but it's the least expensive.

Arriving at the airport I saw my girls all looking as stunning as ever before I parked the car I had a toxic thought of how I'm the only fat one and they all could just be pretending to like me but it was defeated with the fact that they have always had my back from highschool days. Sometimes I talk like I'm old when I'm only 22

As soon as I stepped out the car the compliments started and Yu wah see teeth to

"Babes Yu look good mi nah lie" Kayla said

"Fi true, Yu nyam babygirl no crumbs left behind" Shanty my bestie added

"Real the thickaz look well put together, well neat" Munchie said also

"But of course which day mi nuh look nice?" I said with confidence

"One thing a gyal can never say bout me is that mi nuh always well put together, the "dolly" them nuh have nun over mee" I said lightly tapping my chest throughout my statement

They smiled and a bunch of "right" and "same so good gyal" flooded my ears

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We finally landed in Dubai and let me tell you, mi tired even though I slept on the plane. One thing I'ma do is sleep, call me lazy I don't care just wanna know I got my money

"Maybe Yu can finally find a good man" Shanty said

"Girl mi done with man" I replied
I noticed Kayla was about to say something but didn't

"Girl Yu cyah done with man, Yu just done with Jamaican men, I think we can all agree most if not all a them a drankro" Ashley said
And we agreed

"How Yu so quiet Jada" I asked my other friend though my mother warned me about her badmind-ing me but I always ignore mommy
"Nothing" she replied with a small smile

Know a summo eno from mi reach all she said to me was that I looked nice n after that she nuh say another word, so she gwaan still

We made our way to our drive that I had already taken care of before arriving

As we were on our way to our destination I got lost in my thoughts

Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever find a man who doesn't act like the bare minimum is everything, like it's not. Bwoy all wah gwaan all them boy deh before swear mi did always loyal to them n summo pity them nuh know mi see true them facade and bun them before them even get the chance Fi bun mi but when they do it it still hurts

Maybe I'm a little toxic but it's not my fault, I'm just protecting my heart cyah afford Fi break the most precious thing mi have.

"Babe" Shanty said lightly touching me, I was so deep in my thoughts
"We reach"

Tbc.........

Ummm...... there might be typos😶❤️