Love like Pandora's box

Chapter 36.

Yibo felt like his head was going to split into two as he slowly regained consciousness, he was lying on his bed and there was a mess around his room.

He turned around and saw the messy condition of his house, clothes were scattered here and there, half eaten food kept here and there, it was truly a mess and he had motivation to even get out of the bed and clean his house, or do anything, he felt so lethargic and dead from inside that he just wanted to go back to sleep and never wake up again.

Waking up to a empty house was painful, the only thing person who brought light in his life was gone and now he felt so useless.

No job, no family, no motivation now what? Back in the time he had so many dreams, dreams like get a good education, get a good job, take his sister away and buy her house and make sure that she lives happily and never faces and problems, and then another dream was to have a happy life with Zhan, get graduated from school and then confess his love on the day of graduation.

If Zhan had accepted then they could have gone to the same college and then move in together, have a good life and perhaps have kids as well. There were so many things, he also wanted Yuki to meet Zhan once, and they did meet however not in a way that Yibo wanted them to meet.

But not all of his dreams come true, he lost Zhan and then Yuki and now Luhan.

After Yuki was gone, he changed his dreams, his news goals were to raise Luhan with all the love and care and give him everything that he never had, even if it was just the two of them Yibo would have done everything he could have to give Luhan a safe and protect life.

But now he was gone too.

Now Yibo had nothing, every reason to keep moving on was gone and he can't move forward anymore.

He laid on his bed and stared at the ceiling with empty eyes. On his side table there was an open laptop, on which there was an unfinished resume, he had thought to apply for jobs to other places but he can't find the energy to do, he felt physically weak to even make an effort, laying down like this and sleeping was so much easier.

As he looked around and saw an empty bottle of alcohol he wanted to laugh, back then he never likes when his father or Yuki would drink alcohol and get drunk, because whenever they were drunk, they would ger violent and that is why Yibo hated alcohol and vowed to never touch it, however now he understood that sometimes alcohol was not that bad.

But more than alcohol what helped him calm was something else, he moved a little and opened his drawer and took out a packet of cigarettes and started to smoke, and after his cigarette was finished he pulled up his sleeves and pressed the burning cigarette butt on his skin.

He supressed a painful groan before he threw the cigarette butt away, he had stopped smoking after he became Luhan's legal guardian after all, it was not good to smoke around the kid and but now there was no kid, no family so he didn't have to worry about any one's opinion.

Suddenly he heard the doorbell ring, at first he refused to get up from his bed hoping that whoever it was would go away after some time but it was not the case as the person was rather persistent and kept in ringing the doorbell till Yibo for frustrated and finally he got out of the bed, he stumbled a little before he balanced himself and marched towards the door.

"Who is it?!" He yelled as he opened the door and became more angry when he saw Zhan, "what do you want?"

Zhan did not answer immediately he just stared at Yibo up and down and saw the mess that he was in, blood shot eyes with dark circles underneath them, sunken cheeks he looked sick, Zhan did not like seeing him like that, "I came to check on you."

"Do you have to say anything about Luhan?"

"No, he is fine, I told you I came to check up on you, I am worried about you- "

"Leave." Yibo said as he tried to shut the door but Zhan was not that easy, he stopped Yibo from closing the door and pushed harder and came inside, Yibo stumbled back and glared at him, "I am going to call the cops on you get out!"

Zhan however looked at the condition of the house and saw the mess, it was like a pigsty, how can someone live in such a mess, he looked back at Yibo, "you are not okay."

"It's none of your business, whether I live or die."

"It is my business, I do worry about you, Luhan cares about you, you can't meet him if you are like this, you-"

"Don't you dare bring his name in front of me and try to manipulate me! I am done with you! I have no idea what you are playing at but I have nothing to give you anymore."

"I am not here to take anything from you, I just want to ask how are you doing? You haven't resumed your job, are you working somewhere else?"

Yibo scoffed and Zhan said, "Yibo don't be childish, how are you going to take care of yourself if you don't have a job?! It's been a month how long can you survive on your savings?"

"I'll just starve myself then!" Yibo said, "Whether I work or not it's my choice, why do you care, and besides just like you said, since the ability to whore around runs in my family, if I ever felt like I can just become an escort like my sister.

The job pays well anyways and I am sure I will be popular just like my sister."

Zhan glared at him before he yelled, "do you have any idea what you are saying!" Zhan said as he moved toward Yibo, but Yibo moved back and raised his hand, "stay away from me!" he yelled back, "I don't have time for your games, get out and leave me alone!"

"Is this how you plan to live the rest of your life! I am saying something for your own good!"

"I would rather die or starve to death than ever accepting anything from you! Just leave my house! I don't even want to see your face!" Yibo yelled but suddenly he felt dizzy, after all he hadn't eaten anything since God knows how long.

He stumbled a little and Zhan quickly grabbed his hand which made the latter wince, Zhan heard that and quickly pulled up Yibo's sleeve only to reveal several cigarette burns, "Yibo... you..."

Yibo felt rage when Zhan saw his wounds, he suddenly he pushed him back till Zhan was out of the house and then Yibo shut the door at his face, "fuck off!"