Love like Pandora's box

Chapter 46.

People with paranoid personality disorder may doubt the commitment, loyalty, or trustworthiness of others, believing others are exploiting or deceiving them.

Be reluctant to confide in others or reveal personal information because they're afraid the information will be used against them.

Be unforgiving and hold grudges. Be cold and distant in their relationships with others and might become controlling and jealous to avoid being betrayed.

Not see their role in problems or conflicts, believing they're always right.

Have difficulty relaxing.

Be hostile, stubborn, and argumentative.

Ziyi listed several other things and Zhan could relate to most of them.

"So, I am mentally sick?" Zhan spoke as his heart started to beat faster than usual. He swallowed and rubbed his forehead, "will I never be able to trust anyone? Are all my relationships going to end up being toxic because of me?" he spoke.

Several thoughts swarmed his mind, he didn't really think that he was sick. What now? What if someone found out and used it against him? What if Zach or his parents found out about this diagnose and spread rumors about him being an insane person?

"Mr. Xiao, back to earth," Ziyi said as she called out to him, Zhan looked at her, and gave him a gentle smile. "You also seem to have a problem with overthinking."

Zhan sat straight, "I..." he sighed and said to Ziyi, "You are not to leak this information, right?"

"You have my word; we have signed an agreement, Mr. Xiao. My license, career, and job will be at stake if I leak the private conversation of my patient. You can relax."

Zhan was not able to relax, though, and Ziyi said, "Mr. Xiao, the first step to solving a problem is to recognize it, and you have already recognized the problem, and you also took the second step by applying for therapy.

You came clean about your feelings, and there is hope for a better future.

Healing isn't easy, nor is it fun it takes time; it takes a lot of patience and consistency. Mr. Xiao, you have your son with you now, and I can see that you want to be a better person for him."

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Zhan nodded. "Sometimes I feel overwhelmed because of so many things that I want to say."

"I know, there are a lot of things that you are holding back in your heart, aren't you?" Ziyi said, "Was there anything you wanted to say to Zane? Or your parents?"

"Yes, if I got the chance, then I would tell Zane that I am sorry; I shouldn't have said those words to him, and as for my parents, I... have nothing but resentment towards them."

Ziyi smiled, opened her drawer, and gave something to Zhan, "here take this."

"What is it?" Zhan asked.

"This is a journal; you can write whatever you want to say to Zane in here; you can also write whatever you want to say to your parents here as well."

"What if someone reads it? It's dangerous." Zhan said as he kept the journal back on the table. He himself read Zane's journal, in which Zane had written about his deepest feelings. Zhan would never want anyone else to read about his feelings.

Ziyi spoke, "Then you just have to keep it very, very safe; you can do that, right, Mr. Xiao? So, this is your homework; write about your feelings in this journal."

Zhan sighed as he took the journal and said, "There are many things I want to say to Yibo as well."

"Then you can think about everything that you want to say to him and write it down in the journal, and when you think the time is right, you can approach him to say whatever you want to say that is only if he is willing to listen. That way, you can get proper closure.