I wish I was enough.
I hope I am enough.
But I am not. I am not that enough.
I am not try as hard as I should be.
All I can do is just cry, cry, and cry. How pathetic, isn't it?
I pity myself more often than anybody else.
I refused every love that comes for me. I barked and pushed them off.
And after all that stupid things, I always wondering why I don't have enough love around me?
I mean, c'mon.. I don't love myself, tho. So why I wish that the others will love me?
I turned myself down, I dissapointed people who loves me.
I don't wanna be around them, instead, I just back off and let my self drowning in pain.
How stupid I am for throwing myself into the mud, again and again.
Rumah Uti, Dec 24th 2023
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